Recap:
I'm acutely aware of Inej looking panicked.
"It's either my crew or him" He says as he looks at me.
Suddenly he raises his cane as if he's going to smack Jespers neck with it.
Without so much as a thought going through my brain, I pull the trigger.....
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It takes me a minute to realise. I've shot him... I've shot him.
My eyes flicker to the gun shot, but I don't see any blood. In fact I don't see anything.
As I begin to register that I would have shot him, I hear my breath quicken due to the silence after the bang.
Slowly I take a step back before it turns into a jog.
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I like being alone. I always have. I guess the more I think about it the more I realise that I didn't really have a choice but to be alone. My whole family's dead..... it's not like I have anyone but myself.
The silence was always a welcomed moment to organise my thoughts, a way to keep myself from exploding, but that was different. Now the silence didn't help me think, it made me realise how alone I truly am. It made me realise how I would have shot the leader of the crows for an interesting gun man that I don't even really know yet.
I would shoot the man i used to know in a heartbeat for the dark haired Jesper.
And the worst part.... I would do it again.
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I hear someone knock at the door.
"How are you feeling?" They ask as I look up through the mirror.
"I'm fine. I'm always fine" I say as I dust my knees off and stand up, making sure to look at anything but him.
"Are you sure, because that was not ok for Kaz to do- I can't believe no one saw him remove the bullets from your gun- it's understandable if you need a minute to process" Jesper says
"I'm fine. I'm always just... fine" I say again as I grab one of my dresses and stuff it into my broken suitcase on the bed.
"Lorelei- please just take a minute to think about this" he says as he sighs and catches both my arms in his hands "look at me."
I sigh as I straighten up and look at him.
I know my face is red, but he says nothing of it.
"Jesper I can't stay here. Not after I would have shot Kaz! He's going to kick me out, I should have just left when I had the chance- you almost got hurt!" I say
"But he didn't get shot did he?" I hear another voice say. My head snaps in their direction before I shrug myself out of Jespers hold and go back to packing
"Jesper, why don't you let me talk to Lorelei and I will discuss the plan with you and the others later" Kaz says as i roll my eyes as Jasper leaves the room, not before stopping and whispering something to Kaz.
Jesper leaves and let's the door shut behind him.
It's silent. I've grown to realise I don't like the silence anymore... not now he's back.
"If you've come to gloat-" I start
"I've come to ask you to stay" he says, surprising me, but I don't let it go as I continue packing my belongings up.
"Wouldn't that lead others to see you as a push over Brekker? Wouldn't want people to think tough old Kaz Brekker is going soft" I say as I screw up a shirt and stuff it angrily into my bag
Suddenly, Kaz' cane hits my bag and stops me from adding anything else into it.
"Stay." He says again as I feel my shoulders slump
"Brekker, you've already stoped me from joining the club and now you're making me stay? Anyone would think that you've gone mad-"
"Anyone would think that I'm wanting my family to stay close" he says as I look up at him, showing my red face as I see his jaw tense
"But you don't want me to join the crow club? And that stunt you pulled today?! How is that looking out for family Brekker?!" I argue
"Stop calling me Brekker, you're a Brekker as well you know" he says
"A Brekker? No... you've only ever been a 'brekker' ". I swallow, willing myself to swallow the memories down as well "besides, you're avoiding the question as usual I see" I say with an angry expression
He removes his cane from me with a hard look
"I wanted to see how close you were to Jesper. I can't have him growing soft because of a Brekker girl" he says as he straightens out his glove.
"This 'girl' is not a 'Brekker girl'. I distanced myself from that name a while ago. You know that. And Jesper and I are just friends. I only chose to shoot you, because I knew shooting you in the hand would make you drop your cane" I say
"You could have used your talent" he says as I laugh
"Sure, use my 'talent' a second time in one day and risk my brother, who I wasn't even sure remembered me, finding out again. I don't think so." I say
"Of cause I remembered you, you're my sister whether you like it or not" he says with a hard look
"Well if you remembered who I was then why didn't you help me when I was stuck in Pekker Rollins house?!" I say, raising my voice.
It goes silent as we both realise the issue that wasn't being addressed has been brought to the surface.
I suddenly sigh as I go back to packing
"Stop packing, you can stay here.... You're in the crows, but don't make me regret this Lori" he says as he turns around "And Jesper seems to have taken a liking to you so you'd better be prepared for him wanting to teach you how to shoot"
"But I already know how to shoot" I say, confused
"It's Jespers way of sharing his talents... just don't be surprised" he finishes and with that he walks out the room at the top of the club.
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Darling || JesperxOC || Shadow and Bone DISCONTINUED
Fanfiction"Why should I let you become one of us?" He stares me up and down with his cane firmly held in his right hand with his left on top of it. "You've not proven that you're of any worth to me at all" He finishes as he keeps his eyes fixed onto mine, as...
