ANOTHER UPPERMOON GC

vent 2

Hi

This is another vent

You don't have to read this

Bye :)

I don't think my grandmother understands mental health issues. I know she wants the best for me, but I'm sorry I don't think writing in the back of a notebook, 'Father lord, remove the negative thinking and put positive thoughts' she says it'll help when I do test to get the negative thoughts out my mind just ask god, but I feel god gave up on me long ago, seeing as how I'm a girl and all and I have a girlfriend....I know I'm a little too young to have a relationship but I love her, her name will not be mentioned at all in this.

If you do read this, do you think dating your own gender is bad? I might delete this chapter cause... everyone in my family is homophobic, and whenever my mom talks about gay people and being homophobic I have to be like 'Yeah I totally don't write gay shit on Wattpad and I'm totally not polysexual and demiromantic and demisexual. Totally. And I totally don't want my pronouns to be they/her/it/them or whatever the fuck u wanna call me. Totally.'

Ugh if anyone else is struggling with this please tell me maybe you can give me some tips. And I have a CLOSE and when I say close I mean CLOSE relationship with my mom and I feel like when I'm with my girlfriend I'm being a backstabber and hurting her, maybe I'm the problem? I think my girlfriend would be better without me, like we were best friends until a whole crowd of 11-12 year olds were following her all over saying she's a liar or a snake, I know she did do some horrible things like steal, or lie, one time I had brought my phone to school, and she tried to steal it from me. I forgave her. Everyone does bad things. Everyone always deserves s few chances. Maybe if I were to die she might find someone ten times better. I just want the best for her, if dating your own gender is a sin I don't want her to end up in hell cause she fell head over heels for someone...well like me.

Tell me, what do you guys think?