𝐄𝐧𝐝𝐠𝐚𝐦𝐞 - (𝐄𝐧𝐝𝐠𝐚𝐦𝐞 𝐁𝐨𝐨𝐤 𝐎𝐧𝐞) ·˚ ༘·

𝐋𝐚𝐯𝐞𝐧𝐝𝐞𝐫 𝐇𝐚𝐳𝐞

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𝐓𝐚𝐲𝐥𝐨𝐫𝐬 𝐏𝐨𝐯 :

Midnight, the time of day in which I can find the most peace, the time of day in which I can be alone, just me and my brain which goes on an ever lasting train journey of thoughts. I struggle to sleep when I haven't had a show that day. Matty's thunderous snoring doesn't help. It's nice just lying here, just me, when the rest of the world is fast asleep.

All of a sudden my stomach rumbled, I got up and stumbled my way through the dark hallway to the kitchen. I went over to the freezer and pulled out a tub of red velvet ice cream, my favourite comfort food. After I ate about half a tub, I made my way to the music room and turned the light on.

My music room is a heaven during sleepless nights. I sat down in front of the piano. I couldn't help but look at the Grammy I had won, what we had won. The beautiful result of a terrible pandemic. I couldn't bear to put that award away, it felt like part of the furniture. I picked it up, tears began to form in my eyes, he supported me so much when writing Folklore and Evermore, he even co-wrote some of the masterpieces with me. Those albums felt even more special now.

I can't help it, I miss him. He was my everything, my world. Now it has all crumbled away, I hate it. Matty and I can't write like we did, it always ends up as a mess. But when we used to write, our minds clicked.

Olivia all of a sudden slid through the ever so slightly open door, and nuzzled against me. I put the award down and picked her up. He had always been fond of the cats, I even said he could take Benji with me, but he says he belongs with me. I think Olivia could sense I was upset. "Do you miss your dad" I asked her while stroking her head, not like she can answer. 

"Well I know I do" I continued, and I know all too well I do.

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𝐖𝐞 𝐚𝐫𝐞 𝐬𝐨𝐫𝐫𝐲 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐢𝐬 𝐚𝐥𝐬𝐨 𝐪𝐮𝐢𝐭𝐞 𝐬𝐡𝐨𝐫𝐭, 𝐧𝐞𝐱𝐭 𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝐰𝐢𝐥𝐥 𝐡𝐚𝐯𝐞 𝐚 𝐛𝐢𝐭 𝐨𝐟 𝐬𝐩𝐢𝐜𝐞 𝐥𝐦𝐚𝐨.