Taekook and the ECLIPSE

40 | In Her Thoughts

I lay face down across the sleeping bag, waiting for justice to find me. Maybe an
avalanche would bury me here. I wished it would. I never wanted to have to see my face in the mirror again.

There was no sound to warn me. Out of nowhere, Taehyung's cold hand stroked against my knotted hair. I shuddered guiltily at his touch.

"Are you all right?" he murmured, his voice anxious.

"No. I want to die."

"That will never happen. I won't allow it."

I groaned and then whispered, "You might change your mind about that."

"Where's Minghyu?"

"He went to fight," I mumbled into the floor.

Minghyu had left the little camp joyfully — with a cheerful "I'll be right back" — running full tilt for the clearing, already quivering as he prepared to shift to his other self. By now the whole pack knew everything. Yeonjun Clearwater, pacing outside the tent, was an intimate witness to my disgrace.

Taehyung was silent for a long moment. "Oh," he finally said. The tone of his voice worried me that my avalanche wasn't coming fast enough. I peeked up at him and, sure enough, his eyes were unfocused as he listened to something I'd rather die than have him hear. I dropped my face back to the floor.

It stunned me when Taehyung chuckled reluctantly.

"And I thought I fought dirty," he said with grudging admiration. "He makes me look like the patron saint of ethics." His hand brushed against the part of my cheek that was exposed. "I'm not mad at you, love. Minghyu's more cunning than I gave him credit for. I do wish you hadn't asked him, though."

"Taehyung," I whispered to the rough nylon. "I . . . I . . . I'm —"

"Shh," he hushed me, his fingers soothing against my cheek. "That's not what I meant. It's just that he would have kissed you anyway — even if you hadn't fallen for it — and now I don't have an excuse to break his face. I would have really enjoyed that, too."

"Fallen for it?" I mumbled almost incomprehensibly.

"Baby, did you really believe he was that noble? That he would go out in a flame of glory just to clear the way for me?"

I raised my head slowly to meet his patient gaze. His expression was soft; his eyes were full of understanding rather than the revulsion I deserved to see.

"Yes, I did believe that," I muttered, and then looked away. But I didn't feel any anger at Minghyu for tricking me. There wasn't enough room in my body to contain anything besides the hatred I felt toward myself.