Stars Around Me

5: Faded misery

"Haneul, you're crossing the line. He's our son, why are you doing this to him?" Taehyung heard his father cry to his mom.

"Doing this to him? Do you have any idea what he did? How can you just forget what happened? Eomma and Taeji is no more! Do you get it? My daughter! He killed her!" His mother remarked in a louder tone

"You know he didn't! He's just a kid! He could've died too!"

"You know what? I don't care if he died. He's dead to me anyways"

That's all it took for Taehyung to break. It shouldn't hurt this much.. Taehyung was always aware how much his Eomma despised him, why is it hurting so much now? It wasn't his fault..he didn't kill his sister. He loved her and his halmeoni.

"This is madness, you don't know what you're doing, Haneul!" Kim Suho, Taehyung's Appa yelled

"I don't care if it's madness anymore. I should've seen this coming long ago. I shouldn't have left them with him" she spoke the words with such bitterness that Taehyung wanted to rip his skin out.
"You'll regret it later, I'm telling you "

"Oh I wouldn't. I just don't want to see him around me anymore. Do you hear that Taehyung?" Suddenly his mom turned to him. With such disgusted look on her face, Taehyung knew what she was planning.

He felt his body freeze, he couldn't let a reaction out even if he wanted to.

Please don't do this, Eomma-nim.

"Answer me, you stupid bitch!" At this point she went feral. She threw a glass at him. The glass shattered into hundreds of pieces.

"Jagi stop this right now!" Her husband yelled, pulling the woman away from him.

The last thing Taehyung remembers was the look of absolute hate and disgust in his mother's face.

His very own mother, who never saw him as her child. Was he..was Taehyung that bad to be treated this way?
He knows he isn't naive, he could've saved his sister and halmeoni. But..he failed. Maybe he deserves this. The thought that he should be punished and abandoned for what he has done started weakening him minute by minute.

"Please, tell him..to-to stay away from me, Suho. I can't- he reminds me of them every second- I will do something if you-" he heard faint whispers from his mom.

Tears spilled from his face as he just sat there, staring at the broken pieces of glass. Subconsciously, he took a piece of the shattered glass, he could only stare at the sharpness of the said object. This thing can easily pierce through his skin... maybe.. maybe it'll free some pain he was feeling deep down?

"It'll be al- Taehyung? What are-? Fuck, Jagiya come here!"

Red, it was all red that he saw
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Present day

He slowly blinked at the strong beam of sunlight through the curtains. Taehyung looked at his surroundings, it was his room. He remembers last night.

Thunderstorms. Nightmares. Namjoon

He uttered his name, he's pretty sure he did Taehyung was able to speak again. Did Namjoon hear him say his name? Does he know? [y'all ignore these dramatic parts, I have to include these] and those visions, they were coming back again.

Probably because I didn't take my pills yesterday. He thought in his head.

He glanced at the clock, 10:30am.
Shit, Namjoon must've left after putting him in his bed. The rain must've stopped by now. Right? The younger felt a sad tinge at the thought of the older gone. Jesus, Taehyung what's wrong with you? He thought in his head when suddenly,