🌻Ily In every universe<3🕸 Miles X Reader

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Her name was Y/n Drew.

She was bitten by a radioactive spider and she's not the only one. She hasn't had it easy. But she's not the only one because for the past 2 years she's been the one and only Spider-Woman, or more accurately Dusk-spider. And for those past 2 years I've been the one and only Spider-Man.

.....

But on xx-xx-????, Y/n Drew passed away.

Our 3rd anniversary is...next week....

It's only been about 14 days since I got sent to my dimension which I also....couldn't save my dad....

Suck huh?

It took a lot out of me when we'd worped through the dimensions and I saw her glitch away before my very eyes. I saw the hope glitch out to a burn out in her entire existence fade away in my arms. She was scared....so was I and the race in our hearts was uneven, it seemed to scream at me too. It was so hard to see her desperately try to take hold of me and the way I tried as well.

I watched her try and tried myself, evertime I get a hold on her, she's passed straight through my hands like a sand. My tears on her face and the sting in my heart when I'd tried to breathe, when I'd tried to see a way out of this. Our loophole.

I wanted to save my universe, but she was fading before my eyes. I'd tried and tried and tried and tried.

But evey time I did, the more I failed.

Every time I saw her in my dreams I felt like I failed again.

Every time I thought I heard her, I knew I failed.

I couldn't get up....

And it makes me all think if Miguel was right, maybe if I hadn't been Spider-Man she would have been alive. And..... my dad too....

As soon as I landed in my university, they..found me...took me in and comforted me. I tried to see their sympathy, but I blame them as well.

Gwen tried as well, she stuck by me for that whole week I was in mourning that was till I thought she was my Y/n...and I kissed her....

I hated myself for it...

She tried to bring me in closer to her heart, tried to convince me she wasn't gonna go anywhere and that if we just tried....I'd forget y/n....

I cut all bonds with her that same day.

I hated myself even more...

I see Peter a lot, but hate to admit to him every time I see him and Mayday I see Y/n's smile to the kid and her hugging Peter like a daughter. This was definitely not anyone's doing as to how she died.

A few times I've hoped that Eros would come back and make a deal with me for her back.

I know I'd agree to it.

A few times I'd think that Deo would come back and tell me where she is. No one them did.

My mom hasn't been holding up either, I think she blames me for why y/n is gone. I left with her and came back....without her. It reminds me of how I failed.

It's all come to nothing.

All our efforts

All our love

To nothing

Maybe it all should have been different?

Maybe if I had stopped?

Maybe if she lied and left me?

Maybe if I turned a blind eye to try again and stayed with Gwen?

Maybe if I payed more attention?

Maybe if she did the same?

Maybe if I'd concentrated more I wouldn't be in this mess?

Maybe if I just stopped loving her?....

I hurt her

Y/n?.....what if this all wasn't supposed to happen?.....

Maybe if me and you never happen you'd be alive. I'd be happier to love you from afar if you were still alive.