The Northern Mermaid

Eighteen

"Where have you been?" Jaime demands as I walk into my room, Jaime and I have separate chambers because I can't stand him and also I'm already pregnant so no need to fuck anymore. So why is he here?

"Taking a stroll through the gardens" I tell him, no—I went swimming by this beautiful reef near Kings Landing with Mimmi and Ondina. We met some sea nymphs who were more than happy to play with us. We then spent about an hour in the moon pool since I needed a nap. Now I'm here "what are you doing here?"

"The new handmaiden Cersei got you" he says "told me you weren't here when she came to wake you to bring you to your southern lady classes with your sisters"

"First" I say "Ondina and Mimmi cleaned up my room before hand, their very good about keeping everything perfect for the day. Second I was strolling around and I just came from the gardens. Now leave, I'm planning to head down to Flea Bottom to see what needs to be fixed"

"Fixed?" He asks

"Clothes and food" I tell him "give them to the people in Kings Landing, this place smells like shit and piss"

"They'll hurt you" he tells me

"I'm not defenseless" snapping at him "and I'll have Mimmi, Ondina and Diamond with me. Plus Arya and Nymeria are coming with so that's two fully grown direwolves"

"Come to supper" he offers his arm "my sister insists" there is something wrong about that sentence, I just don't know what.

"Fine" crossing my arms "but I'm not taking your arm" he lowers it as he motions to leave, I follow him to supper. Once here, I see everyone minus the king here.

"Your both here" Cersei smiles "come join us" walking over to the table, I sit between Jaime and Cersei. This is a bad mix.

"Aunt Lyarra" Myrcella asks "what do you think of Kings Landing?"

"It smells" I tell her "like shit and piss"

"The children don't need to hear filth" Cersei scolds me "and your to be a mother soon, filter yourself" our food is brought in, Ondina holds my meal and she gives me a look saying 'don't trust them'

We eat in silence before Tommen asks "Aunt Lyarra? Is it true a queen gave you your trident?"

"It is" nodding my head "she told me that the trident only allows those who are worthy to wield it"

"And none of her children were worthy?" Cersei asks

"All of them were dead" I say, they look at me "she killed them" actually I'm going off of a story I heard about a previous mermaid queen.

"She killed her children?" Joffrey asks "why?"

"They were all men" I tell them "the land I was sent to, was women only. Any man to step foot were executed, any men born were killed instantly by their mothers"

They stare at me in shock "Aunt Lyarra?" Myrcella asks "if you birth a boy, your not going to kill it. Are you?" No, good god no. But best not let them think that.

"Depends on my mood" I tell them

"That would be our son" Jaime argues "your talking of killing it"

"If it's a boy" I say "I refuse to allow my body to create a male child" no, but maybe this will give them the incentive to have our marriage annulled "only women"

"Our father" Cersei says "expects a male heir"

"Then if I both a female" looking at Jaime "find a new wife, annul our marriage and find a wife that will gladly birth male heirs. Maybe have my cousin Sansa birth you male heirs, she does love the idea of being nothing more than a broodmare"

"You truly hate Lady Sansa" Myrcella says

"She's self absorbed and cares for no one but herself" I tell her "best keep her as far away from you as possible Myrcella" when I'm done "excuse me, I am finished" leaving them all.

"Lyarra!" Jaime stops me as I am down the hallway "you are jesting right? If this babe is a boy you wouldn't kill it would you?" Of course not, I would never kill my child.

"I'm tired Ser Jaime" I tell him "go back to your family"

"Lyarra" pushes me up against the wall "this is our child, I know you hate me but don't take your anger out on an innocent"

"Is that what happened with Bran?" I demand "did you hate my family so much that you saw and opportunity to take it? Wouldn't be the first time, Kingslayer" he glared at me before letting me go.

"If that child is a boy" he promises "and you end his life, I will end yours"

"Don't make promises you can't keep" I tell him leaving the hallway.

Once I'm with the girls, we head down to Flea Bottom "My god" Ondina covers her nose "this place stinks"

"Look at all the starving people" Mimmi says

Shaking my head "Lots of boys...let's see if we can convince some to go to the Wall, become part of the Black"

"Really?" Arya asks "Maybe we can send a raven to Jon and Uncle Benjen" yeah, Jon went with Uncle Benjen to the Wall to become apart of the brotherhood. I hate it. I always imagined Jon having kids and his kids would play with mine and Robb's.

"Yeah" nodding my head, I miss Jon. I hope he's going alright. I also miss Demetri, I wish he were here with me.