nightlife ● enhypen

a self-destructive cycle

》》Isis《《

"I already said I was sorry babe." Jake had been following me since the race had ended. I usually congratulate the winner but I am currently refusing to speak to him. He leaned against his car pulling me to lean into his chest.

"Misty. Babe. I said sorry." He placed one hand on my thigh sliding it higher with every word. "If you want I could kiss it better." He smirked.

Jake is a womanizer. I knew that. He knew that. Literally everyone he's ever come into contact was aware of that. Therefore his whack rizzing skills may work on other girls but not on me. I moved his hand.

"First of all, don't call me babe. Second, if you move your hand any higher I'll scream so loud that Tae Rae will come over and beat your ass." I leaned over to his ear. "You know he already claims me as his."

Jake rolled his eyes. I wont lie, Jake is attractive for sure but love and sex is something I'd rather use for power. Apart from Sunny, I haven't had a crush on anybody in a long time. Not that I could really identify if this is love or lust yet.

"ZB1 can't do shit to me." He looked me up and down. "Can't do shit to us."

Honestly, I find it kind of comical the way multiple boys find themselves at my disposal, thinking that their my one and only, when in reality none of them even knew my real name.

"But for real though, sorry for smacking your ass so hard, next time I'll slow down." He tried to reason.

"Then you'll risk losing the race." I reminded him.

"A risk I'm willing to take." He smiled triumphantly. I shook my head in amusement and began walking away.

"Yo sweets! Congrats on the win though." I yelled back to him.

"So no winning kiss?" He complained and I laughed, not even turning back to respond.

"You both look cozy together." I heard Tae Rae say bitterly, leaning onto his car parked near my bike.

"Not really. Notice he's a lot more cozy with Gabbie." I gestured to Jake, who now stood leaning against his car making out with Gabbie, the other flag girl.

Tae Rae laughed. Like a real laugh, not those fake smirking ones I'm used to seeing.  And wow does he have a nice smile. I stared captivated for a few seconds before snapping myself out of it.

"Dang, he must think you're easy, if he thinks you would want to be with him after witnessing him swallowing another girls tongue like that." He shook his head looking away from the scene, then looked over at me.

ZB1 was a relatively new gang with an unknown amount of members (to me at least). But what is known is that they're very straightforward. If they want something, they'll get it and if they feel disrespected in any way, they will retaliate. Other than that, Tae Rae and Jiwoong (the two racers in their gang) have shown themselves to be some of the most genuine people I've met out here.

"Yeah, he probably does think I'm easy. I mean look at what I'm wearing." I joked. But Tae Rae didn't laugh.

"You shouldn't label yourself based on you clothes and you shouldn't let anyone else do it either. You dress that way because you're confident doing so."

Not gonna lie, if I met him under any other circumstances, I would have thought that was the smoothest, realest sweet talk, I've ever experienced. But this wasn't a run in at a park or the supermarket, this is an illegal street race and I know I shouldn't be involved with them on anything but a business level.

"Thanks Tae." I go over to him, engulfing him into a hug. People like him are hard to come by in street life in general. I stepped back and release him from the hug but he gently grabbed my arm.

"Hey Misty, you can say no if you want but...can I kiss you?" That question sort of took me aback because it's far and in-between that people ask for consent before doing stuff like that. "I mean I know it's only like our second or third time meeting and that it's kind of random, but I think you are truly one of the most beautiful girls I've ever met and I-"

I pulled him in for a peck on the lips. 'Cause why not. His face was glowing pink when I pulled away making me smile.

"Could I...maybe, try that again?" He sounds so nervous and cautious, I find it cute and give in, nodding, allowing him to close the gap this time. We ended up making out for a couple of minutes, his hands never left my waist in the fear that I might be uncomfortable.

We pulled away slightly once again and just looked at each other from close range. I never noticed how deep Tae Rae's dimples are until now.

"Are you on drugs or are you actually in love with me?" He asked staring into my eyes. My pupils must be dilated.

I laugh aloud, making him look at me questioningly.

"I know you were trying to rizz me up but I actually am on drugs right now."

"Really?!" He laughs too.

"Yeah, I should probably head home. Bye Tae. Good luck with the next race." I headed over to my bike and sped away leaving the adoring and distantly jealous boys behind.

I made it home by 4 but can barely convince myself to climb up the stairs because I am beat. I slowly took it one step at a time, finally reaching my room at the end of the hall. I quickly gathered my things to take a shower and almost fell asleep twice before I safely made it to the shower and back to my room.

I climbed into bed as my alarm clock read 5:00. I began to nod off at the exact same time I heard my dad close the front door returning from work.

This is how I've been living for the last 5 years, give or take. A cycle I've made for myself; a very self-destructive cycle, at that.

Out almost every night alternating between the race track, the strip club, Belift, a new rave spot I found recently, and occasionally the fighting ring.

Over the last few days, I haven't been going to Belift as often and if I did, I avoided Mr. Kim. Sometimes coming as early as 8 or as late as midnight, not caring if I had to pay or not. Things have been awkward since the whole kissing my dealer thing and I don't really want to relive that situation.

Instead I've been going to a rave spot called the Big Hits. It requires you to take a random pill upon entry; a pink or a blue psychedelic laced pill with a fruit flavor. It's a fun alternative, plus their DJ, Niki, is kinda cute.

A few days later, after a long night of partying, I was peacefully sleeping when I felt the heat of sunlight on my face, which is odd because I never open my blinds.

I opened my eyes preparing myself mentally to get up and close the blinds as fast as I can before returning to bed. I came face to face with Yeonjun staring down at me. I jumped back slightly at the sight.

"Do you always sleep in just underclothes or were you waiting for someone specific, like prince charming, to come in?" He asked. I looked down, shocked to find myself in a black lacy bra and panty set. I pulled the cover up over my chest, slowly remembering getting hot and throwing my clothes to my chair in the middle of the night (aka like 3 hours ago).

"What do you want Yeonjun?"

"Well I have some friends coming over, one of which is already here by the way, and your dad wants you to introduce yourself and quote: be a good host."

I rolled over groaning.

"What was that?" He leaned over annoyingly. I just sighed.

"I'll be out in a few."

"Thank you! We're in my room." He left having adequately irked my soul.

I lingered in bed as long as I could before finally deciding to drag myself out of bed and throw on an oversized t-shirt and some spandex shorts. I quickly did my morning routine, putting my hair into a ponytail before heading to the guest room Yeonjun's currently occupying. I decided not to knock and just entered.

"Okay so can I just say hi and get this over with."

Inside the room, Yeonjun sat on his bed playing a game with the last person I'd imagine.