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hi im back again after a really long time

its currently august 2nd 2023 and im about to go into eight grade

i dont even think that my friends read this any more- but i feel obligated to update this again

uhhh 7th grade was horrifying actually, but i still had fun with my friends.

i think im probably autistic

also maybe a boy which is very confusing

like, my friend said he couldn't picture me as a boy and i agree that i dont act like any boy ive ever met. but i feel like i should have a guy voice and short hair and a flat chest. 

and my brother's come out to my parents and they were basically like, "ok sure but ur too young so we're gonna ignore this and keep calling you by your deadname, but we have trans friends but they're adults and this is like a PROCESS ok so if you still feel like this when ur older we can do something about it ig"

 (which btw if your kid comes out as trans to you it's recommended that you get them a therapist to talk about it with them and also let them change their name and pronouns if they want to and it helps if they go on puberty blockers too)

so like- i probably cant tell them about it lol

but there cant be two siblings who are both transmacs and also both queer. like it's usually ones straight and cis and the others very queer?

i kinda just feel weird. i've thought i was genderqueer since fifth grade but always i thought i was just genderfluid or nonbinary or even a demigirl but i didnt really think about being like- a guy.

i told one of my friends about this once and she was like "noo i dont like change tho so i keep using she/her pronouns" which was.... fine because i went by all pronouns back then but i think i want to try they/them because im too scared for he/him TvT

anyways im about to get braces sometime soon and i just want to get it over with already but my dad keeps forgetting to make the appointment

also its 1am rn and i have to wake up early tomorrow but i think ill just stay up anyways cus yea

oh uh- if anyone has any good gravity falls fanfics they kniw about that aren't billdip could you plaease tell me about them bc if not i might just have to write my iwn 

bye