I don't know if anyone will read it or not but I am just writing it because I want at least someone who read this feel a little less empty.
My word or point of view might not be the same way some of u think but stay with me .
I'll start with the feeling empty.
Sometimes the feeling being of numb turns into emptiness. U slowly pull yourself out of groups of people u love , your friends, your family you start to become quite and nights becomes longer .
You stay awake the whole night eyes wide open . No thoughts.
Empty .
Staring at the white celling whole room is dark and even with house full of people u feel empty .
You start to talk less and less. One day u say 100 words few days later it turns into 2 or 3 or max 10 words a day .
But then u realize nobody cared or no one noticed. You are dying inside but there's no one who looked at you , cared for you , no one is there .
The wall you already built is getting taller and taller and now it's suffocating yourself but u can't pull yourself out.
It's the only thing that's keeping you warm when your whole world is getting colder the only thing is keeping you warm is now the wall u built that's suffocating.
What is the reason for your emptiness? People? Yourself? Or both ?
You have all those emotions that u wanna numb but end up numbing yourself.
People do they actually care ? Did they noticed what you were going through?
What are the feelings? ;
YOU ARE READING
self
RandomHoping to be understood she forgot to actually exist. Hoping to be visible she became invisible forever . Reality hits hard when it's pointed at you .
