Our Night to Remember ( Saalvadera Series # 1 )

Kabanata 20

I let Kairus be with my family as we went home. Tahimik ako matapos ang usapan namin tungkol sa aking huling mga alaala. It was painful. It is still is pero alam ko na hindi ako dapat padalos dalos sa lahat.

Sa huling padalos dalos ko kasi ay nadisgrasya ako.

" Is it okay? " Kairus asked me nang asa byahe kami. Naka stop light ngayon kaya nagkaroon kami ng oras mag usap. Wala namang dumadaan pero sumusunod pa rin kami sa batas cause who knows right? Baka may biglang tumawid bigla.

" What okay? " I asked him.

Iniisip ko na baka iniisip niya na galit ako sa kanya dahil he's still communicating with my Dad amidst knowing what he did with my Mom. May mga ganoon kasing scenario hindi ba? There are some people na nagagalit kapag nakikipag ugnayan pa rin sila sa mga taong alam nating masasama at nakagawa sa atin ng mali. We somehow want them to hate who we hate and don't talk to those people who we don't talk unto.

But I'm not angry with him.

Because I know it is his usual respectful self. Alam ko rin naman na hindi niya gagayahin ang mga bagay na ginawa ng aking ama. At alam kong hindi siya sang ayon o natutuwa sa mga pangyayaring iyon.

Natahimik lang talaga ako sa mga bagay na iniisip ko. Like, Does my Mom's older brothers know? Does our family know? Do they investigate? Why are they seem silent about it? Are they doing their thing in secret?

I know marami pang mga bagay na hindi ko naaalala. Mga alaala na alam kong maaring ika saya ko...o ikagalit ko. And I pray that I may remember it sooner.

" To go there at your house. "

Nararamdaman ko ang pag iingat niya sa lahat ng sinasabi niya sa akin ngayon. I mean, he is always careful with me. Mas lalo lang talaga ngayon.

I looked at him and notice some...fear in his eyes. Hindi ko alam kung dahil saan at kung bakit. Dahil ba ito sa akala niyang galit ako o ano? Hindi ko alam. But as I said...hindi ako galit. Naiintindihan ko.

Ang galit ko ay hindi para sa kanya or kung sa kani-kanino, itong galit ko ay para lang sa aking ama. Walang dapat na madamay.

I smiled at him before assuring him.

" Of course, Kai. "

" You're not angry? " he asked. Finally speaking up his mind.

Umiling ako. " It wasn't your fault. I understand. "

Pero alam ko na kung sabihin ko na hindi...kung pigilan ko siya sa pag punta ay hindi talaga siya dadalo. All of the things he's doing is because he respects them even if they don't deserve it at all. But of course I didn't stop him. I don't want to control him.

Besides, I don't also want to hear my family's words against me if Kai wouldn't go. Gusto ko, hindi siya pupunta kasi gusto niya.

Hindi dahil sa gusto ko.

At mukhang ganoon nga ang mangyayari dahil wala pang kalahating oras ay nagpapaalam na si Kairus para umalis.

I suddenly wonder. How will he react if I told him that this family...almost killed me.

" Be careful, alright? " I told him nang ihatid ko siya palabas.

Tumango siya sa akin bago lumapit para yakapin ako. I rested my head on his chest as I feel the warmth of his love. I felt his lips on the side of my cheeks as he whisper his love and assurance for me.