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Capri Laurent

    A sweet voice filled the small cramped room, walls littered with posters of black artists the floor littered with random shit and toys. Capri chewed on his lip, eyebrows furrowed as he carefully twisted his fingers through the thick and curly hair of his 2 year old. taking a deep breath he closed his eyes for a second, trying to not lose his mind when the toddler squirmed making him lose his braiding section.

❝ I'm insecure
But I can't help it
My mind says "move on"
My heart lags behind
But I don't love you anymore
I'm so insecure
Never knew that love did this
Ooh ooh ooh ❞

Ms. Badu sang making  Sonnet still again and Capri give thanks to the queen. Returning to his task at hand, Capri made quick work of the small braids. Sonnet holding the "Mama's Gum" album cover staring at Erkayah's face with deep focus.

"You hungry, fats?" Capri hummed, leaning forward to see his sons little face. The small child didn't move his eyes but nodded slowly, his little feet flapping at a moderate pace. Capri nodded to himself, lips pinching as he knew this would be the hardest part of even doing Sonnet's hair, the gel and putting his durag on. Trying to be fast he quickly slicked down the gel to his scalp despite the loud whines and cries from his toddler who was actively trying to get away from him.

"Im almost done fats, I know you don't like it, pops is almost done." Capri tried to soothe him knowing that all the shit he was saying fell on deaf ears. Placing the durag onto Sonnet's little head he quickly laced it up making sure the toddler couldn't pick the knot in the back.

Sonnet cried turning to latch himself onto capri's chest, tears staining his light skin leaving red angry streaks to match his reddening eyes. "Yo little ass needs a nap." Capri mumbled to himself while rubbing sonni's small back carrying him out of their bedroom and into the living room where his younger sister, Heaven, was watching some episode of Martin.

"why's stinkabutt crying?" She immediately asked looking at Capri and a now quiet Sonni still latched onto him. Staring out into the distance like he typically did.

"I did his hair, you know how that gel be having my baby." Capri hummed, making his way into the kitchen. He opened the fridge and took out cutie orange, carton of eggs, milk and string cheese. With Sonnet being so picky about the foods he ate, capri had to keep certain items here at all times no matter how expensive things were getting.

Keeping his son in his arms, he took out a small pan, adding a slither of butter to it once it reached a certain temperature. He cracked a single egg into the pan, scrambling it while he singlehandedly peeled the small orange into the small wedges and place them into Sonni's baby plate. Pouring a bit of milk into a sippy cup Capri added two drops of Sonnet's daily mineral supplement.

Taking the egg out the pan while they were very slightly still runny he put them into section of the plate, moving to start pulling apart the cheese and adding that too.

"ready, fats?" Capri looked down at his son who was already looking at him with those big ass brown eyes. Sonni didn't answer not that he had to, Capri knew the boy like the back of his hand. Carrying the plate, sippy cup and Sonni into the living room Capri sat them onto the couch and helped sonni eat.

"You look tired as hell, you know I don't mind watching stinkabutt for you. I know you got classes and shit." Heaven look at her brother, his dark skin compared to contrary belief didn't hide his dark circles.

"He's been real clingy lately, he ain't going for no shit like that." Capri shook his head, it was true, he was tired and thoroughly looking like shit but it wasn't because of his classes or his autistic son. It was the fact he was in the middle of Atlanta on the corner every night trying to scrape up enough money to take care of his son, help his parents with bills and and whatever other expenses that he knew would pop out of fucking nowhere.