Lost in the Truth

CHAPTER TEN

"Can you guys give us some privacy?" Ambrose asks the group and they all silently get up and leave the room. After an impromptu hangout in my dorm.

After the last one of them was out, Avery shut the door and casted a silencing spell over the door.

"What are you hiding?" avery asks

"nothing." I say with a straight face.

"bullshit." ambrose says

"It's nothing, I'm just a bit tired from the party" I say as I sit down on my bed.

Avery sits next to me

"Bella everyone can tell something is off, you're not eating, you're barely speaking, no one has seen you out of your room since the party" avery asks

"Just give me a bit of space. I just really want to be alone." i say

"Bella, you need to start letting people in." ambrose says

"no i need to do the opposite, i need to be selective of who i let near me" i begin to rant but am quickly shut down by avery hugging me.

"We'll leave you alone if that's what you want, but you can't shut us out bella." ambrose says

"I know im just tired i promise" i say as i begin to pull back the covers on my bed. Avery and ambrose give me sad yet polite smiles as they stand to leave the room.

I wait for them to leave before i quickly get up and find a stash of all kinds of no-maj drugs i stole from arsenio the other day while in his room when he wasn't looking. The only good thing that came out of that night.

I grab a small blue pill and quickly down it as i hear voices nearing the dorm, i pour the contents of a small baggie filled with cocaine and quickly break it apart in lines and snort a couple of lines before i hear the door knob rattle and distinctive chattering from the other side of the door.

I put everything away quickly and turn off the light of the room as I run to bed and cover my body with the covers.

Pansy and the girls come into the room, tiptoeing around me. I rapidly shut my eyes and pretend im sleeping.

But in reality i was going to just wait till they fell asleep to figure out a way to get out of here.

"good night girls" pansy says as i hear her shuffle into bed.

"Goodnight" both tracey and daphne say in sync.

Thirty minutes later i tiptoe out of bed get my stash and open the door slightly and tiptoe out.

I snuck out of the common room I managed to find my way up a tower. I climbed the long stairs all the way to the top. After realizing that this tower oversaw the entire castle and its grounds I figured it was the astronomy tower. Cool.

I quickly climbed all the way up and set up on the floor by the railings with my feet dangling off the edge. I was already really high off of what I think was xanax and coke.

I felt great, but i needed a bit more to feel awesome. I rolled a blunt. "Incendio" i mutter and my blunt is lit. i take a puff of it as i rest my hands on the lower railing watching my feet dangle.

"You know drugs aren't the best for you" someone says behind me startling me. I turn over to see who it was and it was Draco, he looked tired, he was in grey sweatpants and a black t-shirt.

"Yeah, but i guess i'm not here for a long time, only a very shitty bleak time so why not have some fun." i say as i take another hit, restoring my attention back to my dangling feet.

He then sits on the floor next to me. Dangling his feet off the ledge just like me. I hand over the blunt to him, he takes it and takes a hit from it.

"Why are you up here?" he asks as he takes another hit.

I laugh shortly, "I'm just being pensive tonight." i say

"Alright then, Morgan." he says with a joking tone.

"You need to stop calling me morgan, it's the worst." i say laughing a bit as he hands me back the joint.

"What should i call you then?"he asks

"Bella, just like everyone else." i say

"Well thats boring." he says

"What do you propose then?" i ask, making him slightly laugh.

"Well morgan sounds fine to me, but i guess something like... oh Belladonna." he says

"Belladonna? I thought nicknames were supposed to be shorter not longer." i say

"No nicknames are supposed to have meaning behind them, something that describes the person." he says taking the joint from my hand and taking a hit then placing it back between my fingers.

"And what does belladonna mean." i ask genuinely curious.

"That's for me to know and for you to accept." he says

"Alright then, so what do i call you?" i ask

"Oh no i don't do nicknames, malfoy is fine." he says

"Who goes by their last name?" i ask incredulously 

"Whats wrong with my last name?" he asks, furrowing his eyebrows and looking over to me.

"Nothing, it's just- I mean you have your own name, why be labeled by the name your entire family shares, why not be you?" i say and it seemed to set something off in draco, "how about dray?" i say

"Gross, never call me that." he says

"I'm definitely calling you that from now on, dray." i tease.

Draco rolls his eyes, i look at his side profile as he stares at the grounds, he was cute, like really cute.

"So you and pansy, did you figure that out?" i ask making him look over at me with an annoyed look.

"Why are you so obsessed over what pansy and i are? Does someone have a little crush?" he teases.

"Oh shut up, i already told you im just trying to be a good friend, and figure you out for her." i say honestly.

"Yeah right, you have a crush on me." he says cheerfully teasing me.

I roll my eyes in response "oh yeah i'm so obsessed with you. I just want you to kiss me soooo badly." i say sarcastically, giggling at the end.

"Is that a request?" he says with a devilish smirk as he looks me dead in the eye with those stunning eyes that seem to be filled with liquid mercury.

"What?" i say as i try to concentrate on my words.

"Oh, am I making you nervous?" he says as he leans in closer to my face.

"What no." i say confidently, his lips now dangerously close, yet i definitely didn't want to move unlike with cormac. I leaned in closer barely missing his lips.

"As if." i say as i pull away and take a hit from the joint that was still between dracos fingers confidently.

I stand from the floor and begin to walk away. "Goodnight dray" i tease. Earning a small chuckle from him.

i head back down the astronomy tower and back to bed. And my mind in a completely different state than where it was when i first climbed that tower.