JASONShe nearly died.
Putting herself at risk the second she got out, fuck knows what she was looking for.
When I got a call from Babs, after killing some dickweeds, I couldn't risk saying to her that I knew that girl and asking her about the ring.
Too risky.
The way I wanted to go out there and help made me nauseous, I said I would help her out but here I am lazing about on my chair, not helping.
I think over the time of the past, her laughs echoing the alleyway as we joked about random stuff, the nights where we stuck near each other hiding out while we would watch the show performance from above having the time of their lives. Meanwhile, me and Lilith made sure we weren't a minute from getting beat up by the police.
There were times when we would rhyme the lines in sync when West Side Story came on, we knew it by heart after hearing it all the time.
There's a place for us.
Somewhere a place for us.
Hold my hand and we're halfway there.
Hold my hand and I'll take you there.
Somehow,
Someday,
Somewhere.
My mind wavers over the thought of Rose, the only other person I trusted to show her the place I hid out, living in the shadows. While kids play in the light.
Rose got here and stuck around for a few minutes and nearly left the place that meant a lot to me.
Showing her my deepest secrets.
Then I did the unknown, saying the lines to Rose. The thought of her engraved in my brain as I repeated the same words we would, her smile brightening up the whole theater in my eyes. Lilith's smile was something different.
Then I kissed Rose.
Lips connected and I couldn't help myself.
A distraction, I suppose.
God, I fucked up everything.
Spent my whole life pushing people away, needing to show my worth for once.
Bruce, Dick, Raven, Gar, Hank. Lilith.
I should've known.
I tried to replace Lilith for Rose, trying to forget the times she helped me through, thinking Rose can do the same.
That backfired.
I shake my head, I lied to everyone, not telling anyone about Lils. We were friends. The only person we had was each other. No more feelings crossing that line. But, me and her were something different, that I think no one other than Lils could replace. We connected, even without communicating, we understood each other in the silence of the night.
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Before Addiction | Jason Todd Titans
AcciónWhen Red Hood, also known as Jason Todd, finally carves out his own path in Gotham, he's hit with a new wave of chaos. His old friend is released from prison after three long years, but Jason knows their friendship has turned to hostility. She's out...