That Girl

Home or nah

When we arrived to this so called home, I let A.J. leave and I stayed in the car.

In one day what I thought wasn't exactly what it seemed. How can one person you choose to spend your whole life with, change? Then you bring another one into your life, then they tell you what it is. It's funny how the two women in my life happened to repeat the same thing over again. It seems like we all are using this excuse to hurt each other. The idea of not having kids.

Ughh

I am a man, but I feel like I've ben robbed.

Would I leave my wife? Hell no. I don't have the time to restart what I have with another woman. It doesn't work like that. I said for better or for worse. Not when a problem comes to surface I leave. Any man that does that is soft. They can't call themselves a man.

I left the car with my thoughts still killing me. I walked inside to find my wife sitting on the couch.

"Khi" she said. She sounded scared but I don't know what to feel at this moment.

"Yes" I said trying to hide every emotion in me.

"We need to talk, can we go to your study?" when she said this I thought what could she possibly want to tell me that she couldn't tell me right here. Did she want me to sign papers? Move out? Kill me? Nahh she wouldn't kill me but still what?

"Why can't you tell me here?" I challenged.

"Look I ain't trying to be rude but you need to stop being so damn stubborn and listen to me. I just want to talk in private that's all. If you can't do that then what the point in talking to you in general?" she walked away. I realized if I didn't let her talk then she wasn't going to talk at all. Plus knowing her she wouldn't talk to me for God knows how long.

"Wait" I watched her stop but she didn't move. That meant I had to go and chase her, like I always do. I shook my head. "Do I always have to chase you?

"What do you mean always? Boy, if you weren't so hard headed you wouldn't need to chase me. Y'all men swear women like y'all chasing them. Plus you know me I was independent before and I can be independent again. My friend" she said walking into the study. I followed her and sat in my chair as she sat across from me.

"So what's up? What did you need to talk to me in private about?"

"Yesterday..."

"What about yesterday?"

"Ok Khi stop. You are being rude. I'm trying my best to talk to you but you are making it impossible for me to talk. What the hell is your problem?"

"Ok my bad. Speak your majesty"

"See." She said standing up.

"Ok, ok sorry"

"You can shove that sorry up your as-

"Hey I said I was sorry. I don't need to hear anymore cussing today"

"Ahh so someone beat me to it huh?"

"Didn't you say you had something to say? Honestly when I think about it, why are you talking to me? Didn't you say everything you had to say last night" the words that spilled from her mouth flashed in my head.

"That what's I'm trying to talk to you about but you seem to be so selfish and so damn rude. Like what the fu-freak is your problem. Plus don't tell me I can't cuss. I am not a child nor A.J. that I can't cuss. You are the dumb ass that got us in this situation. God why did I marry you?" she said as she walked out of the room.

Damn I punched the desk.

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That dumb ass couldn't keep his mouth shut like what the hell. Each time he talks I listen but when I talk it's like he can't get a leash to shut his fat ass mouth. But you like that fat ass mouth of his. I mean I do but not at this moment. How can I be thinking about his lips when I'm burning with anger?