Only you, just you

Confessions

When the time is right I will be with you.
Please wait for me. All will be brought together
in divine timing. Tarot Room

He had to think fast. He couldn't let her make that phone call. All depended on her not finding out the truth. At least not that way. He held her tightly , their fingers intertwined, and brushed feather light kisses down her throat and onward to the dip of her cleavage, causing her to moan out loud with delighted shivers.
Distracting her until she forgets everything but him.

Rey felt like her limbs were melting jelly as her held her close and continued to kiss her.

But she needed to do this. It was only fair to Duke that she tell him of Poe and that he was her destiny, not him.

"I gotta tell him"

"No, no. Stay. Stay with me." He murmured into her sweet smelling hair.

She managed to disentangle herself from his strong arms and shivered with after shocks of his electrifying kisses. She walked clumsily into the room and sat on the bed near the phone.

"Do you want some more champagne?" He asked, quickly grabbing the bottle and their two glasses from the balcony table. Rey shook her head 'No' and turned to the phone to dial the number.

But before she could even speak, he was on her again, taking the phone from her hand and replacing it on the phone cradle.

He gently but firmly pushed her down onto the plush mattress.

"Oh!" She managed to say as she felt his fingers grip her knee , pushing it up, and spreading her legs open so he could fit snugly between them.

'Oh my gosh, should I let him?' Her mind raced with all the words her mother and grandmother and priests told her about saving herself for the man she was going to marry . Well here he was and why should she hold back now?

She didn't have a clue on what to do. Something in the back of her mind whispered, "Just let the feelings take you where they want to go."

She was old enough and smart enough to know were this was going. What he was going to do to her. She felt scared and embarrassed but then, this was Poe.... Her destiny. It was alright. Everything was okay.

So she let him continue to kiss her and she kissed him back with as much enthusiasm as he.

His lips traveled down again to were the fabric of her dress began and her delicate skin disappeared. God , he wanted to just rip it aside to get better access to the creamy flesh beneath.

He reveled in the sound of her gasps and moans, but there was that tinie tiny nudge in the back of his skull that had been tormenting him since he felt she was the one and only for him.

She had been honest with him. And by god , he needed to be honest with her if he was to continue this.

He knew he could wait to tell her the truth, until he had her and taken her and throughly debauched her, but he couldn't.

She needed to know. She would forgive him.

She'd understand, right?

"Rey, Um,". Slurp.... Slurp.... "Um, there's something I need to tell you about myself." She could hear the hesitation in his voice and smiled up at him encouragingly.

She opened her eyes and saw his large melting brown ones looking down at her. Pleading for her to understand.

"What is it? You can tell me anything. We've found each other, haven't we?"

It couldn't be that bad,she thought to herself. Maybe he just got out of jail or he was poor or was already married. Ew, that last one made her wary. She saw no mark of a ring on his left hand , so what could be so bad?

"Yeah." He went back to kissing and slurping. Then in between suckling on her neck he finally said,

" So, I'm ... just not officially... just in the slightest sense...... my names not Poe Dameron."

Her eyes, that were closed , shot open. Her whole body that had been experiencing total bliss, tensed in shock and she gasped for a whole new reason.

The oxygen had been sucked out of the room! Suddenly the room was spinning and she was falling into a black abyss.

But quickly she came to her senses enough to shriek, " Wa ..Wa..What is it?"

"It's Ben Solo." He said sheepishly with a lopsided grin, as if that would make things better.

She shrieked even louder and with the strength of a woman ten times her size , she pushed him in the chest with her foot and he went sprawling to the floor.

He fell heavily, hitting the back of his head painfully on a piece of Italian made furniture.

She couldn't care less if she had hurt him. He deserved it!

"Please Rey, you need to understand why I didn't tell you my real name." She had grabbed her purse and shawl and was running to the door.

"Let me explain!" He yelled as she tried to open the door but was unsuccessful.

"Explain what? You lied to me." Tears were again blurring her vision and she couldn't make out the strange door handle .  " You deceived me!"

She shook and pulled on it but it was useless. She felt suddenly trapped.

"It's just a technicality. A jumble of letters in the alphabet. What does it matter?" He stood up awkwardly from his uncomfortable place on the floor and limped over to where she stood.

A twinge of regret tickled the back of her mind. She had hurt him, but whatever.

"We like the same things, have the same views . We are connected. You said so yourself that I was your fate , your destiny . That we were made for each other."

She couldn't believe this was happening. Why?

"Help me open this door. Now!" She demanded.

He was to much of a gentleman to hold her captive. She could never be his hostage. It was just that she held his heart hostage, forever. Didn't she even know that? He would do as she asked . Even if it meant letting her go. For now.

He reached over her, encasing her between his arms again. She shoved him off and stood back so he could open the complicated door .

She barged through and headed for the elevator. Ben hot at her heals. He couldn't let her get away, not until she understood.

"After everything we just did, everything we are to each other , why would you just leave me like this ?"

"Because you aren't who you said you are, so I'm not who I said I am. I am not the girl you kissed."
Almost lost her virginity to.

"I had to do something , can't you see! I'm in love with you!" He shot back, watching with a growing hot misery in his stomach as she slammed the door in his face.

Her parting words to her 'almost' destiny were, "Ha, what kind of excuse is that!?"