All it took was for a few drinks and that same insecure side that I had hidden over the years came sparking out front and centre
I didn't want that girl to make a reappearance. I didn't want any of this at all
I just wanted to get along, I wanted to move on
I wanted a peace of mind knowing he was happy and I hadn't completely destroyed that potential for him
"Get your ass out of bed Riley, everyone is going out tonight" Emily said walking into my flat the following afternoon. I was wallowing in my own company after last night, but clearly my sister has other ideas
"I don't want to" I grumbled pulling the duvet over my head
"not an option, get up and get dressed. We're all getting ready at Michelle's then meeting the boys at some club down town at 10" she explained grabbing the duvet and stripping it from the bed
With a huge huff I sat up glaring at my sister
"Has anyone told you how much of a peach you are first thing in the morning" She teased
"Oh wait, it's 5pm Riley!" She said too loudly for my liking
"Emily, please don't do this" I groaned laying back in my bed
It was silent for a little bit before I felt the bed dip next to me making me turn to see my sister sat against the headboard looking down at me
"You two looked like you were getting along last night Riles, what happened?" She asked making me sigh as I moved over laying my head in her lap allowing her to play with my hair like she would when I would get overwhelmed as a child
"We were getting along" I mumbled
"So what's wrong with that?" Emily asked softly
"I'm getting sucked in, it felt like old times last night.." I whispered closing my eyes tightly
"That's not a bad thing Riley, don't shut out that feeling. It's a blessing in a disguise" Emily answered but I shook my head
Letting that feeling in was a one way trip to going back down the same road that I'm not sure if even open anymore
"You and James were always meant to find each other again, what if this is that time?" Emily asked
"Is that really a possibility you want to shut out? Just let whatever happens happen Riles, if something happens so be it, if you both just remain friends so be it"
"But you cannot put that decision on your shoulder misses, let nature take it's course" She said
"So get out of bed please and thankyou" Emily concluded before tapping my nose making me screw my face up at her
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These people were the closest thing to family back when we were kids. We still are but I can't help but feel a little strange hanging around with them all again like no time had changed
We had been at the club for almost an hour and everyone had been settled into their evenings, some of the girls were off dancing, the boys were in conversations or trying to make their own moves on girls they didn't know and probably wouldn't remember when they woke up
I was just sat at the table watching from a far
"How come you aren't out there with everyone?" James asked coming back to the table a little out of breath meaning he was probably off dancing with the girls or on the prowl with the boys
"It's nothing" I muttered stirring my drink with the straw
"Come on Ri, I know you better then that" He answered nudging me slightly
"I didn't want to be here tonight. This isn't really my scene" I explained chewing my cheeks
"But Emily wouldn't take no for an answer I take it?" He suggested making me nod
"Sorted, why don't we get out of here? We can grab some food and head back to mine or yours I don't mind" He said making me widen my eyes slightly
"This isn't a loaded visit Ri, just two friends getting food because they don't want to be drunk idiots" He chuckled hanging me my purse
"Okay, we can do that" I said offering him a smile as the pair of us headed out of the door
Walking through the city trying to decide what to eat was probably what I would have assumed was going to be the biggest dilemma but that was soon decided, a lot easier then anticipated
"Shawarma's obviously" James chuckled shaking the back of takeaway as we walked into the lift in my building. I wanted to go back to mine to be somewhere comfortable and it made more sense, if we had gone to James' he would have tried to walk me home tonight. So it's sort of killing two birds with one stone
"Woah" James muttered walking into my apartment. It wasn't huge but it was a decent size for just me and for the price I had to pay
"Cool, did you know you can see my flat from here" he laughed pointing to the building next to mine one of the flats had a light on
"You left your light on James" I said earning a laugh again
"Yeah, I do that a lot. Mum is constantly nagging me about that" He shrugged before practically jumping onto my sofa undoing the bag of food. It took him a moment to realise he was sat alone before he started to pat the seat next to him
"I don't bite Ri, come onnnn" He whined making me roll my eyes with a small laugh leaving my lips
"Has anyone told you that you're a little whiny?" I asked
"Only you and my Mum" He siad
"Oh and Piper"
"And sometimes my Dad" He concluded making me raise a brow at him with a smirk
"Eat your food before I eat it for you Riley" He muttered pushing the shawarma towards me
This oddly feels like it should be the normal.. Like this is how things should be..
But yet this is the furthest thing from our normal..
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Growing Apart
Fanfiction6 years ago, James and Riley made one choice that neither of them had expected they would need to make Riley was heading to business school, James was heading on tour. The pair of them chose to use this time to grow apart There was always the poten...
