Risking it for Sinna🇯🇲

10 "decisions decisions"

Closing my room door slowly i tiptoe to my bed laying down gently pulling the sheet over me while thanking god for watching my back.

Jah kno if mommy did ketch me dead me dead inno . Weh me even a do , this ano me inno bredda

well she didn't so stop think bout the what if's

But my god it was worth it

Like his fingers sigh and him mouth

Bruh

That man's mad talented now me see why the fleety head dem a run him dwn  , then to top it off him mek sure seh me comfortable with whatever him a do . Him literally ask me bout three times if u wanted this before him push him hand inna me panty .

However now me feel mad guilty bruh like mah disappointment yo

Like mommy woulda disappointed if she find out and dad worst sigh .

I can't even be a teenager without y'all ruining it for me huh

Life of having strict Christian parents .

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Packing my bag me put me outfit pon the bed a black jeans and a camo top and me black Air Force one .

Sitting in-front the mirror me decide fi catch me hair in one on the top

"Khyra come here "

Putting down the brush me get up and mek me way to the kitchen weh mommy deh a cook

"Yes mommy ? "

" wah keep up a yuh skl "

" mommy dem no send it inna the grp Is camouflage day "

" we'll yah nah go "

"Why mom "

" me have a vision last night "

" and weh that affi do with me skl mommy "

" me cwa tell yuh else it might come thru but just know a protect mah protect yuh"

" from who the buggy man " I mumble under my breath

"Weh yah just say lil pickney"

" ntg mommy" I say hurrying out a the room

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Laying on my bed scrolling on ig I see people posting there outfit on ig .

Chro man !!! Me scream inna the pillow as tears come a me eyes me tiad a this tiad !!!

Me basically no have no childhood when anno vision a just plain old no. Me cwa go out if anno church me couldn't sleep over like people my age couldn't go birthday party if anno one a mommy church frens .

Tears continue to stream down my face as me think bout me whole life know the worst part mommy have me when she a 18 an it's as if she a control me life so me no mek the same mistake she make but it a suffocate me yo and mommy deven realize seh the more she do that a the more me wah act out .

Sigh

Wiping my face I grab my earbuds searching for my 3 breezy playlist before falling asleep.

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Waking up I check my phone seeing 6 missed call from such b

Feeling drained i make my way to the fridge shooting him a couple messages at the same time .

Opening the fridge I take out mommy's favorite orange juice

Take that

Flipping her the bird ina me head I pour out the juice in the cup and grab two ruffles bbq ofc .
Any body seh orange juice quench thirst a liad come like it just make me more thirsty .

Sigh

As a prisoner

Not to mention my phone I'm in need of a new one like asap because iPhone 6s just ain't it no more shitting tears rn

No
Like really actually caz a finna cry
An imsg game comes in from hes who's name I shan't say and I almost smack my self with the wide smile that cover me face

As a yam head ground provision gyal

Playing with him is so fun especially bcz I keep winning and his excuse each time just hilarious

Apparently him grandma did call him fi tie out goat like bffr who goh believe that lmao

Laying down waiting on him to return the game an unknown number  message pops up on my phone

Weird I haven't given nbdy me number ?

Opening it I first check to see if me know the person

Well I did not

876453****
Hey

Me
Hi

876453****
How are you beautiful

Ewww cringe yak

Taking up the phone from where I threw  it I reply bk

Me
Good ......who's this

876453****
Oh yh my bad your mom gave me your number

Wait

Wait

Wait

Wah tha fah

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😭😭😭😭😭😭😭first off guys don't argue with me 😭😭😭I'm sorrrrrrrry I know I've been absent so long and then I come back with not a 10000 word chapter apology but 😭writers block is real I swear but yeah hope y'all liked the lil filler 🥲🥲🥲
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