I woke up at 7 the next morning there was a note on my pillow from Ross. Sorry babe but work called me in again. Please forgive me i’ll see you at 4 pm. Love Ross.
I crumpled up the note and threw it at the trash can. Whatever nothing new. I got up and went into Stefiny’s room. She was still sleeping. I just stood there and looked at her for a minute. She had beautiful long silky blonde hair, Ross’ gorgeous hazel eyes and mouth, and my nose. She was so precious. I understand how she’s Ross’ daughter but how is she mine? I accidentally pushed the crib a little so it rocked and she wiggled her nose. She opened her beautiful eyes and yawned. She gave me a smile and made a grabbing motion towards me. I picked her up and carried her downstairs. I strapped her in her highchair and walked over to the fridge getting out the milk. I pour some in her sippy cup and some in a glass for me. She took the cup and drank about half of it. Then i made her some oatmeal and we ate breakfast.
When we finished breakfast i looked in the fridge and made a grocery list since it was only 9 and Ross doesn’t come home for 7 more hours might as well go to the grocery store. I picked up Stef and brought her upstairs with me. I closed the door to my bedroom and set her in her walker the got changed. Then i changed her diaper and got her dressed. I wrote a note on the counter in case Ross got out early that said Went to the grocery store with Stefiny and will be back in 3 hours. Love Keira. And signed it with 9:24 to signal when i left. Then i grabbed the car keys and Stef and went out to the car. I strapped her in and got in myself. Then we headed off to the grocery store.
When me and Stefiny got home i saw Ross’ car in the driveway. I looked at our bedroom window and saw that the curtain was closed. He must be asleep. I brought in all the groceries and Stefiny being quiet so not to wake up Ross if he was sleeping. I put Stefiny in her playpen and sat on the couch. I got quiet but i didn’t care i liked the quiet. Just then i heard moans and groans coming from upstairs and someone banging on the wall. I walked up the stairs quietly as the noises got louder. I stopped at mine and Ross’ bedroom. I opened the door to reville Ross and Laura having sex they were both completely naked and Laura was still moaning but Ross had walked away from her and grabbed his boxers. “WHAT THE FUCK!!!!” I screamed. “Look-” Ross started but i cut him off. “Shut up. I don’t want to hear it.” I said to him sharply. “Laura get the hell out.” I said to her throwing her clothes at her. She put them on and left the room not looking at either of us.
I turned to Ross. “What the hell.” I said looking him straight in the eye. He looked down at his feet. “You know what fine i don’t want to hear it anyway. I hope she was worth it.” I said storming out of the room. Ross didn’t come after me. I went downstairs and grabbed Stefiny gently. I put her in her stroller and started to walk to the park. When i found a bench where no one was around i sat down and started to cry.
We were all sitting at the table eating. “So how long has it been going on?” I asked him not looking up from my plate. “4 months.” I heard him mumble. “Look i’m sorr-” I put my hand up to stop him from talking. And he stopped. Ross went upstairs and put Stefiny to bed and i stayed downstairs and made the couch into a bed for me. Ross came downstairs and sighed. He walked over to me and started to kiss me but i pushed him away and rolled over. He sighed again and then slumped back upstairs. I rolled back over. I can’t go to sleep. I got up and went over to the bookcase. I pulled out a small photo album of pictures of Stefiny. I looked through them all smiling at some and starting to tear up at others. When i put that away i saw another. It wasn’t labeled so i grabbed it. I had pictures of mine and Ross’ wedding and copy’s of our vows. I started to cry again.
Why would he do this? How could he do this? And for four months. I eventually cried myself to sleep and dreamt about all sorts of things.
When i woke up in the morning Ross had gone to work again. I called up Rydel and Caityln and asked them to come babysit. When they got here i told them i’d be back in 2 hours. Then i left. I went to the graveyard. I started to walk through all the stones. When i came up to one with a flag sticking out of the ground next to it. I sat down and stared at it. “Oh daddy what have i done?” I started crying. “I don’t even know if he loves me anymore. It was stupid to fall in love with him. Even though you didn’t really meet him you understand me, right?” I sighed and took a deep breath.
I heard footsteps come up behind me. I shot around to see Rocky and Riker standing there. They both walked up to me and sat down. Rocky opened his arms and i leaned in and cried into his shoulder. I sat up when the tears stopped. “Your brother is an ass.” I said looking at the ground. They both nodded. “We know.” Riker said scraping the dirt off of my fathers headstone. “He does love you though.” Rocky said picking dandelions from around us and making a bouquet. I nodded and started to make a crown out of the ones he had.
We sat there for awhile talking and making things out of dandelions. When i finished the crown i placed it on my father's headstone and kissed it. Then we got up and walked away. Why is life so frickin hard?
