How I see you| Seungin✓

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I placed my hands around his waist, looking up at him as I did. Making sure I wasn't doing anything wrong. He smiled up at me.

"You're a good boy Minnie." He said as he put both his hands on my face. I didn't know how to respond. I just starred into his eyes waiting for his next move. He pulled me in again this time holding my face with one hand as the other traveled down my back, slightly putting my body on top of his. I held his waist closer to my own as I felt him no longer supporting his own body weight. My eyes shot open as I felt him suck on my tongue.

"Uh, Lix?" I tried to speak but he didn't answer. He kept sloppily sucking in and on my mouth. It felt like it went on forever. Before his lips left mine going down to my neck instead. I looked up to the ceiling, giving him easier access. I didn't even mean to, I just did it.

"Fe- Felix this isn't kissing." I said weakling.

"Do you like it Minnie?" He asked, before he continued.

"It's not, uh hmm practice."

"It can be." He replied.

"Lix let's stop hmm." He pulled away. Looking at me with sad eyes. I blushed bright red, I know I must look like a mess.

"I look stupid huh?" I laughed trying to bring us out of the awkward moment.

"No, you look beautiful." Felix said glumly.

"What's wrong?" I asked, concerned. I hope I didn't upset him. Felix didn't deserve that.

"Can't we keep going?" He whined

"....why? I don't think I did very good." I admitted

"Please, I don't want to stop, you did good."

"Uh ok........ just for a couple more minutes, ok?" I smiled weakling. I didn't really want to continue but he was acting so weird, so sad. What am I supposed to do, say no to someone like Felix. My best friend.

"Can we lay down?, I'll be more comfortable."

"Um, sure Lix."

He laid down in the middle of the bed, never taking his eyes off of me. I tightened the towel around my waist before crawling over to him. I held my body over his. I tried to keep a emotionless expression as he wrapped his arms around me pulling our bodies together. He kissed up and down my neck for a minute or so before getting to my lips again. I started to feel the rhythm thing he had brought up early so now it felt a lot better. I could feel my muscles relax as we hummed into each other's mouths. He was right I did feel safe. Not that I didn't before, of course I did. He's my friend.

My eyes opened slightly as I came out of the trance I had found myself in. I could feel his hips grinding against me. Has he been doing this for long? Is he hard!?

I pulled away. He huffed under me.

"Felix?"

"What?"

"You, you.... Are grinding on me." I stated in disbelief. It almost felt just as strange to say as it did to experience.

"I'm sorry...." He said softly before grazing his hands against my Abbs. "It's as close as I'll ever get." He mumbled as His eyes began to water.

I leaned down to him.
"What? Why are you crying, you're freaking me out Lix." I whined as I wiped his tears with the back of my hand. He only cried harder as he wrapped his arms around me again, laying his face against my chest.

"I'm so sorry Minnie, I-l wasn't going to do it, please don't tell chan! I love you, I'm so sorry!" He cried, his tears running down my chest.

"Sorry for what? And why would I tell chan, I'm not mad Lix." He cried a bit more before responding again.

"......I don't care about jeongin, I care about you. I thought you might be more likely to sleep with me." He took a deep breath.
"so I lied, I'm so sorry."

I pulled away from him completely. My eyes wide with pain and confusion.

"Why would you do that, you're jeongin's friend, you're my friend. I thought you loved chan."

"I do, I do love chan, please don't tell him!" He begged with glossy eyes.

"Tell him, I wouldn't tell him he'll murder me."

......

"Why did you do that?, I thought we were friends." My voice cracked as I spoke.

"We are friends.....Its just like how you feel about jeongin, I want you just like that."

"That's disgusting Felix, I would never cheat and that's not how I feel about him, what I feel for jeongin is love, I don't know what you feel for me but it's not going to happen. Chan deserves better. Get out and don't call me or come by till this feeling is over." I ordered with tears in my eyes.

"Seungmin it's not just lust, please I didn't mean it like-"

"Get out!"

(...)

I called Jisung like ten times today and he still hasn't responded. I called a couple times in the morning, a couple times in the afternoon. Nothing.

Oh shit I know. I'll call minho. I picked my phone up off the kitchen table.
No answer.

Well whatever I got a couple hours at work to get over with, than I can see whats up with them.

My mood was a bit sour after what happened with Felix but my face was actually happy coming into work for once. Jeongin was waiting for me.

"Hey!"

"Hey innie you gonna chill till my shift is over? I asked hopeful for his response.

"No hyunjins coming to pick me up in about ten minutes or so, but I wanted to stop by for a cup of coffee and to see my handsome friend of course." He smiled sweetly

"Oh... Just the usual right?"

"Yup, thanks Minnie you're the best."

"Yeah of course."

Ten minutes later and he was right, hyunjin came strolling in like he owned the place as usual. I ran from behind the counter to catch jeongin on the way out.

"Hey innie!" He turned to face me. "Will you come over for a movie with me tonight?"

Hyunjin looked down at jeongin just as eager for his response as I was.

"Yeah, sure I'll be by around six ok!" He replied cheerfully. Hyunjin rolled his eyes as he tightened his grip on innies wrist. I smiled.

"Great!"