How I see you| Seungin✓

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Steering with one hand on the wheel and holding my phone with the other, I answered Jisung's call. I immediately slowed down, taking the full weight of my heel off the gas.

"Jisung? What's wrong? Say something man." I asked as I heard his cries coming from the other side of the phone.

"Seungmin f-felix is-"

"What?, Spit it out ji-ji."

"He's in the hospital, he tried to kill himself." He finally blurted out. Oh God.

"What? What the fuck, w-what hospital is he at?"

"He's at Asan medical center, he hasn't woken up yet, chans the one who told me." He sniffled. "Seungmin what are we going to do w-what if he doesn't make it?"

"Don't say that jisung, I'll be there soon."

I ran into the house, shouting for jeongin. He came out of the kitchen in nothing but pajama pants.

"Whats going on Minnie?" He asked concerned.

"Get dressed we got to go to the hospital, Felix tried to comitt suicide last night." Jeongins face completely dropped.

"What!?, oh my God are you serious?" He asked as he ran to put on his shirt.

Jeongin stopped me as we were walking out the door. I turned to him confused.

"What?"

"Do you think it's a good idea, for me to go?" He asked.

"What do you mean?"

"Well....... he's in love with you, isn't he? I don't think he'd like to see me." I thought about it for a moment. Felix wasn't awake but if he did wake up the last news he'd want to hear is that I had confessed to jeongin.

"Do you want to stay here?" I asked.

"Yeah, I think it would be better, but only if you're gonna be ok?" He asked as he put his hand on my cheek. I shook my head yes.

"I'll be ok baby, I'll try to get home quickly but it might take awhile, I love you."

"I love you more, Minnie"

(...)

I took a deep breath as I prepared to walk into Felix's hospital room. I opened the door. Chan was right next to Felix's bed, holding his limp hand between his own. Jisung and Minho were sat in the corner of the room. Jisung looked truely heart broken, Minho didn't look as sad but I could tell he was hurting when ji-ji was. Chan looked over at me. I pulled up a free chair over to Felix's bedside.

"You were in his note...." Chan said quietly. I looked over at him.

"His suicide note?" Oh shit. I hope he didn't say anything about his feelings for me. Chan was already heartbroken enough.

"Yeah.......you wanna see it?" He whispered before he pulled it out of his jean pocket, handing it to me. I took it from his hand. I read it.

"Platonic, what fucking torture ."

My heart sunk. Chan looked at me.

"Do you have an idea what he meant?"

"Uh.....no, no I don't get it." I said as my palms started to sweat. I felt like chans eyes were burning into me.

"So.......he's not talking about you?" Chan asked slowly. I immediately started to stumble over my words.

"W-what?, no why would that be about me?"

"I'm not sure, but he talked about you our whole vacation." Damnit Felix, what the fuck where you thinking!? Shit.

"Well.....I don't really know why." I said as chan eyed me suspiciously. Just then jisung jumped up from his seat, and walked over to the bed pointing at Felix.

"Look! I saw his head move, call in the nurse Minho." Jisung shouted as he moved in-between me and Chan to get a better look at Felix. Chans face immediately lit before reaching to shake Felix's shoulder.

"Baby! Baby are you ok, wake up!" He begged as all four of us now were standing over Felix's bed. His eyes began to flutter open.

"Oh, thank God Lix, what the hell were you thinking!?" Jisung scolded as chan smothered Felix in kisses.

"Whats going on?" Felix asked weakly.

"You tried to hurt yourself Lix." Chan replied as he caressed his Felixs face.

"Oh."

"Do you feel alright, Felix?" Minho asked as the nurse walked into the room.

"Uh, I think so." He responded drowsy. As the nurse came and checked on Felixs wrist and head, before she asked us all to leave, all except chan of course.

Me, jisung and Minho sat outside in the waiting room. Waiting.

"Did you read his note?" I asked jisung as I stared at the floor tile.

"Yeah.......I'm so sorry seungmin, it's not your fault." He said as he walked over to me, putting his hand on my shoulder. I stood up.

"I'm sorry, I can't be here any longer, tell Felix I'm sorry, call me when he feels better, I gotta go." I said before storming past jisung and out of the hospital. Minho and jisung looked back at me with sorry expressions as I stepped into the elevator.

A/N Sorry if this part sucked I didn't have a good time writing it lol it will get better soon (⁠〒⁠﹏⁠〒⁠)