How I see you| Seungin✓

15|💜

I watched helplessly as the ambulance took hyunjin and jeongin away. My tears finally broke as I started to cuss myself out. What the fuck did I just do? I've never wanted to die more than at this very moment. I walked back in the house sliding down the door as I broke out in sobs. I think I stayed there for an hour, maybe longer.

My phone rang inside my pocket. I answered it. It was Minho. I wiped my eyes as I prepared to explain the fucked up situation I had found myself in.

"Minho listen, I'm sorry I hurt hyunjin, i-i don't know how bad it is but-"

"It's alright, he's alright, if anything I think you should try a little bit harder next time." He interrupted me nonchalantly. I was always so confusing talking to Minho.

"Are you at the hospital right now?" I asked.

"Yeah I am, jeongins here to, hyunjins definitely not happy though." He laughed.

"I know....... I bet jeongins mad at me to huh?" I asked, regretfully already knowing the answer.

"What? I mean kinda but why didn't you mention you confessed to him, y'know jisung is going to be pissed at you."

"What?, What are you talking about?" I asked completely confused now.

"Well..........Jeongin broke down to me in the hospital, he said he loved being a part of the Hwang family but that he was in love with you not my brother, then he apologized to Hyunjin, he just broke up with him a couple of minutes ago, you should have seen the look on my brother's face." Minho explained before erupting into laughter. I damn near started laughing with him as my face lit up from his words.

"Are you serious!? He said that, he really broke up with him?"

"Yeah, I'm serious."

(...)

I sat in the hospital parking lot, preparing myself to make the call. I picked up the phone.

"Jeongin?"

"Seungmin......can you pick me up from the hospital" he asked sheepishly. I smiled.

"I'm already outside baby."

"Really?" He asked softly.

"Yes love, I'm right out front."

(...)

Jeongin hung his head down as he opened the car door, not looking at me as he got in. I grabbed his hand as I stuck the keys on the ignition.

"Are you ok?" I asked quietly. He turned his face to mine as he squeezed my hand.

"Please forgive me seungmin, I meant everything I said this morning, I love you, I'm so sorry I yelled at you Minnie, i just-

"It's ok, it's ok, Minho told me already." I assured him softly.

"He did?"

"Yeah........ So you don't have to apologize for anything."

"Yes I do, I shouldn't have said that earlier, I didn't mean it I was just in shock.......I really don't love him minnie." He admitted, it was Music to my ears.

"I know baby."

(...)

I held him tightly in my arms as I listened to his every breath. In my Pitch black room I couldn't see him. But I could feel his chest going up in down under my touch. I laid my chin on his head. His hair is so soft, I inhaled its light cucumber scent. I nuzzled my nose to his cheek. My dreams are reality, finally. He squirmed around a bit, readjusting himself as he cuddled closer to me. I let him get comfortable before I pressed my face back down to his. I kissed his cheek for hours, only stopping to praise him as he slept.

He turned his face up, fluttering his eyes at me. I pulled away.

"I'm sorry, did I wake you?" I asked as I rubbed his back.

"No, I just had a dream....... I was falling." He said sleepily.

"Was it bad?
"

No, it just woke me up but now I don't want to go back to sleep."

"Do you want something to drink?" I asked.

"Oh Sure, can I have some apple juice?" He asked sweetly. My heart melted as he looked up at me with those beautiful deep eyes.

"You can have whatever you want baby." I said as I got up from the bed. He grabbed my hand.

"You don't have to get up, I can get it myself." He insisted. I laughed, as I waved for him to stay in bed.

"It's ok innie, I was already awake I'll get it."

I handed jeongin his glass of juice as I crawled back into bed with him. He thanked me, kissing me on the cheek and patting me on the head. He was so cute it physically hurt at times.

"Did you get any sleep minnie?" He asked sounding concerned.

"No, not much." I admitted honestly.

"Oh, Minnie you're gonna get bags under your eyes if you don't get proper rest." He whined as he cuddled up to me. "And plus not getting enough sleep can cause headaches and you'll be drowsy all day at work."

"I'm fine, I just couldn't get to sleep, it's almost morning anyway, I'm wide awake." I said trying to assure him I was alright.

"Ok, well make sure not to have too much caffeine it's not healthy."

"Ok ok mom I got it." I teased at his over the top concern.

"Oh be quiet", he said as he slapped my shoulder. "I'm just looking out for you." He said with a pout. I leaned his head towards me, to kiss his forehead. He looked up at me.

"I'm gonna miss you........ when you're at work." He said glumly. I smiled.

"I'll be back in no time, then we can spend all night together, ok?"