Don't jump

Maybe I'm in the way

11 may

I was lying in bed, my body felt heavy. And I stared up at the ceiling but in the corner of my eye I caught the glimpse of a sihloette, I lifted myself out of bed to get a better look of what was going on and I saw Tom running around like he was looking for something. He looked upset, maybe he's stressed?

-Tom, you need anything?

-No, I'll do it myself.

Tom answered me with clear irritation in his voice.

-Okay, but what are you looking for?

I asked Tom.

-UGH! It's none of your business.

Tom said, looking me in the eye angrily.

I was a little worried about him, because he is usually isn't that rude, especially not to me.

-Are you okay?

I asked Tom with a confused look.

-WHY WOULD YOU CARE!

Tom yelled at me.

I took a step back and looked at him with a shocked look on my face.

-W-what why wouldn't I care about you?

-OH COME ON! You only care about yourself!

Tom screamde at me.

-You only care about what you want, you don't care about me, Georg or Gustav.

He looked at me again and grinned.

-And why do you look so damn surprised.

He snarled at me with irritation in the tone he used.

I didn't answer him, I just looked at him with confusion. He looked into my eyes but the way he looked at me startled me. He looked at me like he hated me, like he didn't want me here. Like he thought i was in his way.

-You are selfish.

Tom said with anger in his voice.

He turned and left without explaining what I did to upset him. My eyes started watering, I took my sleeve and I wiped my eyes with it.

I didn't know what to do, so I just stood there. I started breathing heavily because the confusion he cost me, I didn't understand what I had done wrong. I felt my eyes watering again, but this time more. Tears began to form from my eyes which began to run down my cheek.

I felt guilty maybe I said something to upset him or maybe I was just in the way.