Don't jump

What is going on?

18 may

Tom and I have hardly spoken to each other during this entire week. I've tried but every time I did he just looked at me without saying a word or he would just ignored me. I didn't know what I had done wrong, all i did was ask if he needed my help.

Me and Georg were in the kitchen cooking food for everyone.

I tried to hide how it affected me when Tom stopped talking to me but Georg understood that I was hiding something from him.

-Are you okay Bill?

Georg asked me in a friendly tone.

I didn't say anything, I just looked down at the cutting board. But that probably only made it easier for him to understand that something was not right.

So he decided to ask me one more time

-Bill, how are you? You look very tired.

I dropped my gaze from the cutting board and looked up at him. He looked worried.

-Yes, I'm fine, I'm just a little tired.

I looked down again and kept cutting the potatoes.

-Oh okay, but if you ever want to talk i'm here for you.

He said trying to comfort me without even knowing what was wrong.

I started to get a bit annoyed but i didn't say anything. I hade no right to be mad at him, he was just concerned. So I brushed of the feeling of irritation and finished cutting the potatoes.

-Okay does this looks good Georg?

I asked him. To be honest i hade no idea what i was doing, i know nothing about cooking, but i guess Tom and Gustav knew even less beacuse Georg alwayed asked me to help. I didn't mind, I liked spending time with him.

I gave Georg the plate of potatoes. He giggled and said

-Good enough. Thanks for the help Bill.

-No problem.

After waiting for about half an hour the food was done.

-Hey Bill can you tell Tom and Gustav to come down? The food is done.

Georg asked me so I did as i was told.

- Tom! Gustav! Dinner is ready!

I shouted from the hall so they would be able to hear me.

I went back to the kitchen and Georg thanked me again and asked me to set the table. I did as he asked again.

And after a while Gustav came and sat down at the table.

-Were is Tom?

Georg asked Gustav.

-I don't know.

Gustav answer as he took some potatoes.

- I can get him if you want to.

I said as I got up from my seat.

-That would be great.

Georg answer

I was walking towards the stairs but when I took a sharp turn but when i did I crashed into someone, it was Tom. I fell backwards and landed on the ground and Tom stumbled back but cought himself on the stairs before he fell.

-FUCK! WATCH WHERE YOU GOING!

He yelled at me as he place his hand on his forehead and rubbed it.

-I'm sorry

I said as I got up from the floor.

He rolled his eyes and walked past me bumping into my shoulder. He walked into the kitchen and sat down at the table. Gustav looked at Tom with a confused expression. And I could tell that Georg was angry.

-Are you okay Bill?

Georg asked me

I didn't answer I just sat myself next to Georg.

After we had finished eating Georg asked Tom and Gustav to do the dishes because we were the ones that made the food, they agreed.

Me and Georg walked out and before I got to the stairs Georg stopped me and asked

-Why was Tom so mad at you?

- I don't know

I answer quickly as I tried to walk up the stairs again but he stopped me once more

-Are you sure. Because if you want to talk about it, i'm here you know?

-NOTHING IS WRONG!

I screamed at him.

He looked at me with a confused look and with sadness in his eyes.

-I'm sorry I-i didn't mean to yell. *Sigh* Tom is just bit angry I guess.

I said as I walked past him.

He tried to shout after me but I kept going, I didn't want him to see me cry.

I haven't spoken to Georg and Gustav about my problems. It's not that I don't trust them, I wanted to tell them but, I can't stop thinking about what Tom said to me. What if Georg and Gustav felt the same way about me.

I went to my room because I hoped of some peace. I laid down in my bed and started staring at the ceiling again. I was very tired but I couldn't fall asleep. I just laid there, my head throbbing after everything.

I was thinking about what happened yesterday, my head ached as the feelings rolled back, causing my stomach to twist as I felt tears well up once more but what was the point really? He had a right to think that, maybe he's right. After all I am is a selfish, sensitive being that can't even handle having truth told. I am just overreacting, that's what I always do... I look up, avoiding blinking to not allow the tears to roll.

And then all of the sudden heard Gustav and Tom shouting at each other from the kitchen. I tried to listen to what they were fighting about, but I couldn't make out a single word they were saying.

But after a while of them two fighting it became quiet. I got up from the bed and i started walking myself to the doorway.

And then I saw Tom coming out of the living room, he looked pissed. Gustav was shouting behind him, Tom turned to Gustav and screamed

-You fucking idiot! And flipped him of.

Tom walked over to the key cabinet to get his car keys. Gustav was pissed aswell so he said

- So, you're just going to runaway now huh? You bloody coward!

Tom slammed open the front and started walking over to his car. He jumped into his car and drove of in a high speed.

When Tom was gone I went down the stairs and walked up to Gustav.

I don't think i have ever seen Gustav this irritated and angry before. He isn't the type of guy that gets mad at things easily.

-Hey what happened between you and him?

I asked him with confusion.

But before Gustav could answer he got inturpded by Georg.

-What is going on?

Georg asked with a confused look on his face.

He went down the stairs as well so he could get closer to me and Gustav.

Gustav didn't anwser our questions he was to mad right now so he just walked away without saying a word to me or Georg.

Georg then looked over at me and asked

-Why are they so mad at each other, do you have any idea what happened?

-No,

I answered Georg quickly.

-Okay, I don't think i have ever seen them this mad at each other before.

Answered Georg, but in a worried tone.