Destroy It All

Buck and Filippo

A/N - I added some (blanks) so you could fill it in with whatever you want xoxo! enjoy.

Alex

Today was filled with meetings back to back and I would always be sitting in the back of the room pretending to take notes, this was one of those moments I hate acting like some stupid notetaker for Marco, and he always made sure to make fun of the way I would dress, today I was wearing heels I don't hate them, I hate the way others make me feel while wearing them, today Marco made fun of me when I tripped walking out of the meeting, I so very badly wanted to punch him right there and then. 

For lunch I made myself a (whatever you think she should eat!) and I sent Marco and the others out, I was having one of my days again, the new medicine Maggie had gotten me had helped for a few weeks but I still had my bad days will all noise was too much noise, I usually shut all the widow blinds and send everyone but the guards and Maggie home.

The doctors didn't know what was wrong with me, they had no idea how the explosion affected me, nobody did, some of the doctors say there's nothing wrong with me just the pain of losing papa got me, some say it's the stress of running the The Bellezza Nera Frankly I don't care.

Aldo.

"How are you feeling Alexandra?" he says kissing my forehead. 

"I'm fine, what are you doing here, I thought you were in New York until fall?" this isn't good he won't like the idea of me tell the Scarlatto's the truth about me and me asking Lucas to marry me, I would've ask him about it, but I knew he wouldn't agree with me. shit....

"Yes, I was but-" he turns on a light, "But I got an odd phone call."

This is it.

"About me?" I ask, sitting up in my seat.

"Yes about you, do you have anything to tell me, huh?" He knows.

"Stop with the games Aldo, say what you came all the way back here to tell me, but please do not yell, I'm way too tired to deal with that today."

"You're engaged! to Lucas Scarlatto! for fucks sake Alex I'm gone for five minutes and it all goes to shit?" 

"I knew you wouldn't agree with me, but Aldo he's the only one who can help me kill Roberto!" I told him not to yell, I rub my head.

"This is still all about Roberto! are you fucking kidding me!" he paces around the room. "You're not a child anymore you cannot be acting like one! god."

"You're right, okay." I say causing Aldo to stop and look at me. "I'm not a child, I am the Bellezza Nera and you like it or not me and Lucas made a deal alright, I'm doing what's best for me and if that means killing Robert." I stand up, and walk up to him. "It means killing Roberto Moretti."

"Alexandra, I'm worried about you."

"Don't." he tries to grab my hand I push him away, "You know the way out." and with that I walk away my head pounding worse than it has in days, I duck into the closest hallway and fall against the wall and cover my ears the ringing began.

I don't know how long I had been there but it must've been awhile since Maggie was out of breath when she found me, but unlike everyone else she knew how to act around me without setting it off.

Maggie sat down next to me, and threw her arm over me and pulled me close to her, skin contact helped as much as I hated it, it always helped.

"They told me Aldo was here."

"Mhmm."

"When was the last shot?"

"Mhmm."

"Alex?" she lifts my head up. "When was the last shot?"