Destroy It All

You and Me

A/N - to clear it up.

There are other branches but they will not be shown.

The Red Queen is a branch in the Leadership. down below is the Red Queen branch.

-La Fratellanza (The Brotherhood) run by Lucas Scarletto.

-The Bellezza Nera (The Black Beauty) is run by Alexandra Moretti.

-La Croce di Sangue (The Cross of Blood) run by unknown.

-Uragano Bianco (White Hurricane) run by unknown.

Alexandra's Journal

They fucking locked me up. like a goddamn animal.

I know why they did it, it was the right play but I never have liked being locked up.

For three days I was locked in my room, the only thing I looked forward to was Lucas coming in and talking with me, we've gotten to know each other which was nice, considering the circumstances. He always had a way of easing the tension with his friendly smile and comforting words.

it was weird it felt like we've known each other for years, despite only spending a few weeks together.

I would never say this out loud but I think I could actually love him, not yet of course but one day I could see myself falling for Lucas completely.

Doubtful he feels the same way, he's seen more of me then I would like, he saw me break down he's seen me the real me it took me years to let Marco see me, and Maggie twice as long I don't really understand why I trust him so much there was something about Lucas, something that made me feel safe, something that made me believe that he might just understand and accept all the parts of.

I know I know I've grown weak! And I hate it!

This deal was only made to keep me alive , but now I'm starting to question if I've made the right choice. Forcing him into marriage! I mean writing it out shows me just how much of a mistake i was desperate for a way out, it seemed like my only option.

During some of the visits we talked about the wedding we want it to be small, I tried to talk him into eloping but Maggie overheard us and nearly killed me with her disapproving glare.

On another note... Aldo hasn't come around since I kicked him out... he was just getting on my last nerve and he knew better last thing I checked up on him he was still visiting his parents in Texas . I guess it's for the best that he's giving us some space. But I still miss him after I was done being angry at him for telling me what to do!

I have a problem...I'm falling for Lucas hard and fast. The more time we spend together, the stronger my feelings become. I'm one of them. I can't help but smile whenever he's around, and my heart races whenever our eyes meet.

Maggie wants me to write about how I feel about Evie and her death It feels like my soul has been shredded into a million pieces since Evie's murder. She was the closest thing I had to a sibling it was me, Evie and Marco we grew up together all of us best friends since we were kids. The pain of losing her is unbearable, and I find myself constantly grappling with emotions of grief and anger. Or at least that's what Maggie tells me. Me and Marco didn't talk about her not since she tried to kill me. Listen she didn't mean to kill me or I'd be dead she doesn't have good aim but she was five feet away from me, she could've but she didn't.

I forgave her. But I know I killed her and Gabe's killer but it still didn't help. I knew that the real killers are alive and that makes me burn with a deep, seething rage that consumes me! it's all I can think about when Luca isn't with me, another reason I like it when he comes.

Speaking of which...he's here at my doorstep, a bouquet of flowers in his hands. God it's like he's trying to make me love him