What have you done? || 🧠 || [Karlnapity Angst]

10

TW:
Light mention of a panic attack
Light mention of drugs

Nick pov

Karl is acting extremelly strange lately.
The fact that he banned Quackity from Kinoko Kingdom makes me extremelly confused.

Karl always told me how much he loved Quackity, and how he was so scared that he would find someone better... and then he just acts like nothing happen?

I've been trying to talk to him about it, but he always changes topics. I dont want him to get mad at me as well, though, so I go along with whatever he says.
I cant risk losing someone else, specially Karl

Not that I dont love Quackity, but my relationship with Karl is... different
Its like we are meant to be, like we were made for eachother.
But I also love Quackity...

Polyamory is a weird thing for me. Not that I dont believe its a real thing, but I dont understand it. I probably wouldnt be polyamorous if it wasnt for Karl (though I did have a small crush on Quackity) proposing to both of us

I didnt really knew how it worked, so I just did what they did

Before we created Kinoko Kingdom, I felt more attached to Quackity than Karl, though I never mentioned it

Then we moved in to the same country and we were always together, so I loved both of them equally....

And now Quackity is gone.
I dont want to move on, but if I keep thinking about him, who knows what would happen to me

I dont even know where he went. There would be no way of knowing anyway. I hope he is doing well

Maybe someday I try getting him back, but for now, I just want to understand what is happening with Karl

For some reason, we had slept in Quackity's bedroom since he was gone. Everyday I would wake up with the feeling of deja vu, and a feeling of something missing

The missing thing was obviously Quackity. I would wake up with Karl on my arms instead of him, which is nice as well, but I am more used to have him instead
Then I wouldnt have Quackity's good mornings, the time he was gone to go to work where me and Karl would do pretty stuff for him (Food, bracelets, flowers...), the times where he felt sad and he cried on our arms all night or even the times he had night panic attacks and we had to go to his house to make him confortable again

I loved those times, even though I find it very hard to express emotion "the right way". I would do anything for it to come back

Now, I was just laying down on his bed, thinking about this. I cant get my mind off of him, but I hope it does soon.
I dont want to get depressed again

At some point of my overthinking, Karl slamms the door open and stares at me, smiling.
That scared me a little bit, but the feeling was gone when he threw himself at me and hugged my chest "Im bored" He said

I chuckle "Yeah, I am as well"
I wasnt, but I wanted to see what Karl said

"Mhh what should we do?"

I look around "We can talk... or... we can-"

"Ooh! Talk about what?" He smiles at me and I sigh, followed by some soft laughs

"Anything you want"

"Okay... so... uhm.... what is lunch going to be?" He starts playing with my hair

"I dont know.. Karl can I ask you something..?"
He puts his hand down and raises an eyebrow

"Yeah? What is it?"

I look away "Why do we sleep in this house..?"

Karl stays quiet for a little bit "I dont know! Now that its free, its kind of cozy, you know?"