Poems

DNA

*Disclaimer: I know the title belongs to some songs from big artists, but I'm not trying to get copyright infringement. Those songs belong to the respective artists. I'm just talking my persona, character, and my view on life. Nothing more. Thank you🤍!*

When I was born, it was a great time

I could finally fulfill the family bloodline

But life choose my destiny

One you could say could maybe happen in fantasy

All the hardships and trauma

The downfall and carelessness of drama

Holding back from the knife

Deciding whether its right to live life

Not only throughout the years I've cried

But many nights I've wanted to be free to die

Yet that one little voice stops me because its true

I don't know what others go through

So I start to play with my own mind

To not worry about reality or the grind

Its my guilty prison of unloved and no affection

I just wish someone would truly care

Someone who could make all my issues fair

I don't understand not why I have to go through this

But why must I go through so much and get blamed for my bliss

My ignorance and stupidity are what people know

And apparently that's my flow

No one knows that I just want to be accepted

I'm tired of being rejected

I'm done fighting

But my dna says I'm not even close

Its a blurry lighting

A trampled and tainted rose

No this is not a cry for help

Because no one actually will help

This is my pov that many rarely see

And if they do, I wonder where they might be

I know my dna prevents me from making lasting friendships

And granted I never even had good situationships

Some were my fault and some I was provoked

And I take responsibility for never being equally yoked

Maybe if I changed myself completely for everyone

Maybe I would be loved

The problem is I need to have a mask in case of anyone

New experiences scare me because I'm not sure what would offend and what is accepted

And even though I have a rough draft, some things that are jokes are now offense

Which makes me feel like a bitch and affected

Like a code that doesn't make sense

My dna clearly can be seen as something toxic

But my life has been painfully chronic

Just like words can be played

That's the story of my dna