Ruler Of KISHI I (g×g) ✔

liar liar....

Yes yes, i know... i changed the title and the cover and the description, i think i like it better this way.

Anywaysss....hope you enjoyed the chapter and please don't hesitate to leave a vote behind. Thanks lovelies😁
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Skyler's pov
   
    Bly absolutely wanted to fuck my brains out but i told her we had to stop to get to my mom's industry, what we originally came here for.

I still haven't asked her where she went last night, she probably thought i didn't know.

I'm not a light sleeper but I'm also not completely clueless, i heard when she came in last night practically sneaking into bed and smelling like God knows what.

I was sort of tired so i just decided to ask her about it this morning, i hope she tells me the truth and it really wasn't anything major.
I've gotten quite insecure with Bly ever since we started fucking again, i think the worst whenever something is weird.

I might be paranoid but ever since what happened when we dated back then, i just can't help but think I'll be hurt again. Especially now that whatever this is might not be as big as it is for me to her.

i really don't know what we are at the moment and I'm sure as hell scared to even ask because i know she has an issue with commitment and labels make her feel constricted.

It literally chokes her into cheating or doing something that would hurt the other person aka good ole me.

I know it's really unhealthy but I'm crazy about this girl and if i have to keep shut and remain labeless just to have her touch me the way she does and look at me like I'm the only one in her world. Then call me pathetic but so be it.

Don't get me wrong, she didn't exactly treat me like trash when we were together. She just got scared and pulled away from me causing her to break up with me saying she 'wasn't feeling me anymore'.

I was devastated back then, i thought i wasn't enough but she was really nice to me even when she said those things and fucked other girls, it was like she respected me.

I felt like shit of course, because I've been crazy about her since i saw her, she was actually my awakening. I thought i only liked boys but damn was i wrong when i saw her for the first time, i just knew i had to be bi or something.

Since we broke up, i never got with anyone because i was just sitting around waiting for my B to come back to me. We got closer in this period, i basically went over to her place every other day.

We did things together as friends, even though she was fucking other girls and even having conversations with me about it. I still never got over her.

But as time went by, i noticed that Bly actually had a soft spot for me. I came to figure that she never stopped feeling me like she said, she basically jumped from girl to girl and always told me how she was just having fun and never really felt anything for them.

I tried not to get my hopes up but those little moments we had once in a while, staring at each other with heart eyes, admiring each other and just being present opened me up to a side of Bly other people don't get to see.

The kind, gentle, soft, sweet, sparkling eyes, loving smile and....

Oh gosh, i feel like I'm fangirling.

Anyways, let's say I've caught Bly staring and drooling at me several times to know she still wants me, even if it's only sexually.
But....i also know she's crazy about me too.

It's one of those things you just know and are definitely sure of.

That didn't stop my insecurities though because with Bly, you almost never know. She does rash things sometimes, mostly when she feels boxed up. And I'm trying so hard not to put her in such position, mostly for myself.