Keeping Secrets

Chapter One

"...Calvin Harris? Have you heard of him?" Tree asks me.

"Yeah. I've heard of him," I reply sadly. I glance over at Ed who keep making worried faces at me. I mouth 'it's Calvin Harris' at him, hoping he can read lips.

"I'm sorry Taylor but this hate towards you and Ed is getting out of hand."

"So me pretending to date someone else will help?" I snap at her.

"Mr. Harris and I seem to think so. Give it a chance? Maybe the hate will die down and you and Ed can slowly be public again," she calmly says, I only sigh in reply,"look, Taylor, it's not like I'm asking you two to break up. I'm just saying-"

"Pretend to be broken up suddenly after two years?" I interrupt.

"I guess that's one way of looking at it. Please Taylor? Your team and I just want all this bad stuff to go away. It's been too long."

"And it's been the first time I haven't cared wha-"

"TAYLOR! Stop being so stubborn! This is happening! Bye." Tree clicks the phone off. I scream in frustration.

"Taylor, what happened?" Ed asks, entering the bedroom, coming back from God knows where. I explain the whole situation-- because of the hate Ed and I have been getting for the last year or so, we have to fake a break up and I have to pretend to date Calvin Harris. By the end of my story, I'm in tears.

"Tay, it will be alright. We can still be together! We just got to figure out how to fake it properly." He reassures me, failing miserably.

We sit and think about how to make it look like we broke up. Ed abruptly sits up from his slouching position on the bed after what seems like forever, but was only 15 minutes.

"Hey, what is your favorite talk show to go on?" He asks, confusing me.

"Hmmmm..." I think for a moment, "Ellen, I guess? Why?"

"Perfect. She's always asking you about your love life! When she asks you about us, just say that we broke up a while ago."

"Your genius!" I shout and bounce over to him and embrace him, "Wait. I am not even scheduled to be on her show for a long time." I pout, and Ed lets out a laugh, one that I learned means he thinks I'm being cute.

"You two are mates, right?" I nod a bit, "Ring her, tell her that if she's got an availability, you'd love to be on the show!" He grins, proud of his idea, my turn to laugh the 'your so cute' laugh.

"I'm gonna go make some calls," I say climbing off the bed and going to my music room. First I call Tree again and tell her I have a plan in place and need to meet Calvin. Then I call Ellen, I have her cell number so it should be easy to get in touch.

"Hello?" Ellen answers after three rings.

"Hi Ellen, it's Taylor!"

"Hey, Taylor! How are you? It's been awhile since I talked to you!"

"I know! Too long! I'm good, how about you?"

"Oh, not much new with me. But that's ok," she pauses for a moment, "so what's up with you?"

"Well, not too much... So, um, I am going to be in Burbank soon and was wondering if you had any openings on your show? I would love to be on and see you, maybe surprise the fans, too." I talk really fast and I'm clearly anxious.

"Oh, of course! Taylor, for you? Anything! I would love to have you on. When are you in town?"

"All next week! Is Tuesday okay, though? I have some other things scheduled next week.. If not I could do any other day really." Lie, lie, lie. I'm only going to California to be on the show.

"Tuesday works for me! Well I gotta get going, see you soon, Taylor!"

I hang up the phone with Ellen and go back to the bedroom.

"Well?" Ed asks hopefully.

"I'm going to Burbank on Tuesday." I say flatly. I sit in Ed's lap and start crying again.

"What's wrong, love?" He kisses the top of my head.

"I know we aren't really breaking up, but if feels really real," I sob out, "and I hate lying to the fans, lying period. I want to be able to go out and be seen with my boyfriend. My life sucks...Just.. Ugh fuck my life."

"Taylor, look at me." I lift my head up and our eyes meet, "can I tell you something?"

"Ed, I'll be honest, right now isn't the best time for confessions but go ahead."

He chuckles at me and continues, "You are the most important thing in my life.... No actually, you are my life. If I didn't have you, I might as well die. Do you feel the same... About me? I hate to be so forward but I need to know."

"Ed, if you are trying to get me to say yes, so you can twist my words, just so we will have sex, it's not gonna happen." I stand up from the bed. Why is he being like this all of the sudden?

"Taylor I wasn't going to say that-- although..." He winks at me

"Ed..." I roll my eyes.

"What I was going to say is that if you feel the same way I do, then your life doesn't suck, does it? Unless I suck?"

"Your terrific at these speeches!" I laugh at him.

"We aren't breaking up. It just looks like we are, okay?"

"Okay." (AN: tfios reference!! Lol hi! So hope you enjoyed the first chapter!!! Sorry if this first chapter moved kinda quickly but I just wanted to get the premise of the book over with so that way the book will progress slower and what not. Sorry this note is kinda long I wanted to get 1000 words.)