Keeping Secrets

Chapter Ten

I've been on tour for a few days now. I've had so much fun performing and meeting the fans I've been lurking online! But Ed is still on my mind. I keep expecting him to text after shows or call me or FaceTime me at some point of the day like usual, but then I remember that he hates me. Then I remember that I hate me, too.

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*Ed POV (hahahaha feels coming)
Moving back home was supposed to make me feel better, to make me forget the problems I had. But no matter how hard I try to forget the problems, to forget Taylor I can't keep her out of my head. And no matter how hard I try to hate her, I can't. No, I still love her. Even though she did a horrible thing, I still love her. But that doesn't mean anything. It doesn't mean I will forgive her, or will give her a second chance. Who am I kidding, given the chance, I would get back together with her. Why wouldn't I? Who wouldn't want to be with her? But that doesn't make up for the fact that she cheated. I just wish she wasn't the only thing always on my mind.

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*Taylors POV

Today I have a radio interview for the biggest radio station in the town I'm in. I've been distracted so bad lately that I don't even know where I'm at or where I'm going to be. I arrive at the radio station around noon.

"Hello! Ms. Taylor Swift!" the host of the radio show says as he walks towards me in one of the rooms behind the recording room.

"Hi!" I smile as I stand from the chair in sitting in and shake his hand.

"Wow," he stands back and waves his hands around my whole body, "you look stunning, as always!" He says with a cheerful smile. I smile in reply. I'm wearing a simple eggshell colored crop top and skirt.

"Thank you," I say shyly.

"Hmm, you are a bit early..." he frowns.

"I'm sorry, I don't have much to do today. I can go?" I say, pointing to the door.

"No! Of course not, please stay! How would you like to guest DJ?! I can show you all the buttons to press and you can do all the technical stuff for an hour-ish until your interview?" He asks hopefully.

"Oh, why not!" I shrug very excitedly.

He shows me inside the room and where to sit while he does his show as normal. He points to the buttons to press as he goes, just like he said he would. It was kind of fun! An hour later, while a song was playing he turns to me and tells me that my interview is next, and I give him a thumbs up in reply.

"That was Maroon 5's "Sugar". And once again I'm Dylan for 123.4 GXTL (yeah I totally made that up)," I let out a sigh of relief when he announces his name. Now I can address him properly, "and Taylor Swift is in the studio! What's up, Taylor!"

"Hey, Dylan!" I say enthusiastically.

"How's your life been treating you?" He asks

"My life's been pretty great! I'm having a blast on tour and meeting all the fans and I'm just really happy right now."

"And how's your boyfriend, Calvin Harris, dealing with you being on tour?" I take a deep breath in. This is the moment I've been waiting for. Who cares what my management says. Who cares if I get hate. I was happier when I was reviving hate than I am now.

"I'm glad you asked that. See, Calvin was never really my boyfriend. I never really broke up with Ed. It was all a publicity stunt and I was thinking I would stop getting hate. But then Calvin sent out that tweet to try and get me and Ed to break up. And it worked." I say that last part quietly, it's still haunts me.

"Wow. Thank you, Taylor, for sharing that with me. I'm terribly sorry this happened to you but I got to ask, was it true, Calvin's tweet?" He furrows his brows.

"Um that's not really a question I want to answer..." I chew my bottom lip.

"Ok, that's fine. But were you romantically involved with both Ed and Calvin and the same time?"

"YES OK I WAS!" Enough is enough. Who cares what people will think of me, "IT WAS A BIG MISTAKE, AND I REGRET IT! But I just want to say one thing. Ed," I lean in real close to the microphone, "if you are listening I want you to know that I know I made a huge mistake. I shouldn't of let him kiss me..."

*Eds POV
"But I love you and I will do anything to get you back. Please give me a chance," Taylor's voice seeps through the speakers in my car. So many thoughts are running around in my head. Do I give her another chance or do I stand my ground? I don't know what to do, don't know what to think. I switch off the radio because it's not helping me concentrate anyway.

"So what are you gonna do about that, mate?" Stuart asks me.

"Not sure yet, thanks for asking," I say sarcastically.

"Do you want my opinion, Ed?" He asks seriously.

"Probably not but give it a shot," I say while not really paying attention.

"I think you should take her back," he says, very matter-of-fact like.

"Why should I do that?" I say, still not caring too much.

"Well, first off, you've been very cranky since you broke up. And more importantly... you love her."

"Love-d," I correct him.

"I know you think about her. I know you say that you hate her and want nothing to do with her. I can see it in your eyes, you love her."

Shit. The man might be on to something.

(Double update because I probably won't update within the next few days but I'll try because I love you guys! So please comment what you think Ed is going to decide-stand his ground or make up with Taylor?)