Keeping Secrets

Chapter 12

Taylor POV:
I have been on tour full swing for quite some time now but I do get short breaks in between times. I have been getting as many interviews as possible. Its the only way I can reach out to Ed anymore. But even breaking down in a puddle of tears on live radio doesn't seem to get his attention. In my final attempt at getting him back via interview, I'm going to be on The Tonight Show. We are about to pre record our "Ew." sketch, bringing back my character "Natalie". I'm am actually kind of excited even though lately I've been acting pretty pathetic, thus feeling pretty low.

"Please welcome, Natalie," Jimmy says in his 'Sara' voice as a come down the stairs that come from nowhere onto the set. I'm wearing the three way pony tails and fake braces again, along with the big glasses and a pink unicorn shirt and rainbow skirt.

"Hi, Sara!" I wave as I sit down on the couch using my 'Natalie' voice.

We carry on the interview, and dance to my song "Bad Blood".

"Calvin Harris?" 'Sara' asks me during the "Ew Speed round".

"Ew," I say.

"Really? I think he's kinda cute,"

"Yes, I much prefer," I say as I reach in my pocket, "Ed Sheeran." I say confidently with a big grin on my face as the audience cheers, holding a wallet sized picture of Ed that I had on my phone.

"You have a picture of him in your pocket?" I'm asked with a slight laugh.

"Yeah. Don't you like Ed?" I question.

"I like his song "Thinking Out Loud". What's your favorite?"

"Tenerife Sea." the audience cheers again.

We end the interview shortly after and I run to my dressing room to change into my normal clothes for my real interview. I go back stage and wait to go on for my interview for a few minutes and try to listen the person currently being interviewed, although I can't make it out.

"Miss. Swift?" One of the stage hands approaches me, "Mr. Fallon wants you on stage, if you aren't busy?"

"Sure!" The curtain opens and some random music starts to play as I strut out onto the stage. As soon as the crowd comes into my line of vision, so does Ed. I jump back a few feet in utter shock. How did this happen? Of course this was planned, but how did I not find out?

Ed opens his mouth to say something, but I immediately stop him. "Whatever you have to say, should not be broadcasted to the world. Please don't do this to me. Not here, not now." And with that I run off stage, through the halls and into my dressing room, leaving a stream of tears behind me. Not long after I throw myself on to the couch, Ed comes in the room.

"Why did you do all that shit? Crying on radios, begging for me on TV, doing what you did less than an hour ago for this show?!"

"What a greeting, thanks." I reply.

"Oh don't change the subject."

"I did that because I couldn't talk to you any other ways!" Yep, we are having a full on argument here and now. Okay.

"Well would you want to talk to me if I cheated on you?!" I knew he was gonna stick that in my face.

"I did a bad thing," I say calmly, "I know. But if you had answered my calls read my texts, you would have seen how sorry I was. I shouldn't have done it. I hasn't realized how lucky I was to have you until I did that--"

"Did what?" He says taunting me.

"Ed don't make me say it. I already feel ashamed enough."

"Say it. Maybe then I will believe you." He retorts, still sounding like a third grade bully.

"I slept with him." I whisper.

"For how long? How many times did you do that?" He says, suddenly much calmer.

"Are you trying to hurt me?"

"No, I need to know."

"I don't know, a couple weeks?"

"Taylor Alison Swift give me a damn number!" He shouts.

"Stop yelling at me!" I shout, " you aren't my father!"

"Then tell me how many times!" He shouts.

"Five! That's all! I shouldn't have! Okay! I'm sorry!" I give up, and break down crying again," I didn't love him, he said he loved me, I guess I thought that I shouldn't let him down, but he was just a creep. He led me on so he could get sex," he doesn't respond.

"Ed, I never stopped loving you and I will never stop,"

"I still love you," he mutters.

"What?"

No response.

"Ed what did you say?" I say, raising my voice.

"It doesn't matter," he says quietly.

"We may be kinda messed up after this but if two people are in love, they need to be together. Please, give me a chance?" I practically beg.

We don't talk for a good 20 minutes and people come in telling us if we aren't going to film something that we need to leave. So we leave and go to our separate cars, but Ed's car follows me all the way home. And Ed follows me into what was our apartment, but for the last few months, only my apartment. For another twenty minutes we sit without speaking.

'I wish I knew what he was thinking.' I think to myself.

"What are you thinking?" I say out loud, although not very loudly.

He just shakes his head no.

10 minutes.

15, then 20, then eventually one hour goes by without speaking.

"Ed, I'm going to bed." I yawn and slink towards to the bedroom.

"Do you want to know what I've been thinking?" He asks. I immediately perk up and turn toward him, nodding my head yes.

"Marry me." he says seriously. I blink I few times in disbelief.

"What?" I gulp.

"Did I stutter?" He laughs. I run to him and he engulfs me in a hug that I nearly forgot, but instantly remember every detail of every touch.

I'm going to marry him. I'm going to be Mrs. Taylor Sheeran. We're getting married.

(Hey sorry I've been sooo busy lately and yeah next chapter is the last one!!)