I lied

8

The next few days were tough. It broke Mrs. Kim's heart that Tae has locked himself in his room and barely spoke a word. He hardly ate too. It seems he had fallen into a deep dark hole and she doesn't know how to help her son. Mrs. Kim knew right from the start that Tae is more sensitive than other kids his age. It's almost like seeing the world through a multi-layered lens.

Taehyung laid on his bed staring at the ceiling. He felt empty and overwhelmed at the same time. It was almost the same heaviness when his father passed. Except he had JK to support him during that horrible phase in his life. Now, JK is dating his cousin. His cousin of all people.

He missed his Jungkookie. Did he take it for granted that they will always be together? Does JK smile at Mingyu the way he used to smile at him? He thought that smile belonged to him.

"I know I'm no match for Mingyu. That guy was born golden. He's not not a bad guy though, so I think...or hope he's good to JK". There's that word again: HOPE. Hope was his weapon. He always hoped that JK would one day feel the same for him, and not just his friend. He kept hoping because JK didn't date anyway, so he must have had a chance, right?

'Hope in reality is the worst of all evils because it prolongs the torture of man' - Tae remembered seeing this quote from Nietzsche. He's trying so hard to make sense of what's happening, trying to be brave, but the waves of emotion engulfed him finally and the tears just flowed. And kept flowing.