English Rewrite the Polin star

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Colin watched Penelope leaf through the book, saw Penelope's eyes widen and then biting her lower lip in concern.
He watched her worried she hoped she hadn't written anything inconvenient, and she waited ..
"Well then I'll start..." Penelope said
And I start reading about distant countries, sugary sands and crystalline waters. Green hills and blue skies.
Colin listened with his eyes closed. Penelope's voice was a sort of reassuring lullaby.
Penelope was trying to romance it all by not mentioning her name...she was hoping Colin wouldn't read that book now because she would be mortified. He spoke of her, for God's sake, as if she were her life partner. She was shocked, as she thought of writing these things, she had no idea probably that then someone had read it aloud. Why was she writing about these feelings that she never told him? She was upset and at one point she had to stop.
"Is something wrong? Why did you stop reading?".
"Sorry I missed my mark." minds
"It's like I'm writing for someone important to me...do you know if I was courting anyone?"
"You should ask your family this question, not me."
"There must be a name written somewhere, let's see .." she reaching out her hand to receive the book.
Penelope hugged the book in her arms with fearful eyes but she didn't give the book to Colin.
Colin gave her a questioning look and saw that Penelope made no move to return the book to him.
"Penelope? Can I have it back? I want to look at something.".
"Ehmmm.. No"
Colin got up and went to meet Penelope who was sitting in her chair holding the book in her arms. Colin towered over her and his physical prowess made her feel not only small but as if she had turned into a mass of jelly, Colin in that moment was not only beautiful but he was a great danger to her sanity.
Penelope jumped up but despite everything she was still small in front of Colin.
"Pen give me the book..."
"You called me Pen... Only you call me that, do you remember anything?"
"No... actually no but it came to me like this, give me the book..." he said grabbing Penelope's arm with a firm but delicate hand, they both pulled away receiving a shock at each other's touch. They gazed intently into her eyes for a moment and Colin had a flashback of them dancing and then of him leading her into a room hand in hand.
"We danced together...and then I took you into a room..."colin squeezed her with both hands..."I did something to you...tell me...I know I did something to you, I understood it from the way you look at me! Or maybe we are lovers and you don't want me anymore and that's why what a journey... have you found a baron and he's certainly worth more than a cadet?" Colin said in shock. Penelope jerked away from him and slapped him so hard that she felt excruciating pain in her hand.
"How dare you! How dare you even think that. You want the truth, you really want the truth!" throwing him the book.
"We danced at all the dances together, your mother forced you to do it because I was just a stupid fat shy little girl  and nobody wanted to make me dance. I yearned with all my heart for every crumb of your attention because  I was in love with you from the first time we met 12 years ago. 6 years ago you started traveling and we started writing letters to each other and we started sharing our most intimate secrets and desires. 2 years ago you saved our family from the scandal of a fraud perpetrated by your cousin about our father and that night you confessed how much you cared about me, that you'd always be there for me" poking Colin with a finger at everything he said "you told me I was important to you!! You're just a liar! Because that same night I heard you talking to 4 men about me, you were laughing at me when they asked you if you were courting me You said you would never court me and you didn't even think about it you were just nice to me p because I was always alone. You humiliated me and in the months to come while you went around the world, I was denigrated and pointed out like poor Penelope! That's why I stopped writing to you and these" taking out the letters written by Colin "are your stupid letters!" throwing them at him "I wanted to read them because I was worried about you after what happened to you and I wanted to give you a chance, I wanted to forget and forgive you. But I will never.. Never!"
And she went out crying, bumping into her Anthony who took her in his arms, she broke free and run away.
"What the hell happened?"
Colin took the letters and the book and sat down to read, paying no attention to Anthony.