Pokemorphed (Current)

Panicking

Jenny's POV

Wednesday.

My nightmare. Sleepover day.

I'm going to reveal myself to Kelli and Danielle. I'm actually dead.

I really wanna chicken out. A lot.

Maybe find a nice cave to spend the rest of my life in instead.

And since today is Wednesday, tomorrow is Thursday. My first school day in about a week.

I'm terrified.

You're probably wondering what I do all day? If I'm not at school or anywhere else, alone at home, what could I possibly be doing.

Trying to find out everything possible about noibats. Oh, and I made a new friend.

I named her Shelly. She's a tailow who landed next to me when I was eating from my tree.

She's pretty great. Her little flock migrated, but she stayed behind this year.

Actually, a lot of tailow stayed behind this year. It was on the news.

Yes, I have watched the news. I was bored and there wasn't anything else on. I also watched a noibat documentary, which is how I know hertz is... um... it has something to do with sound waves and frequency. Human beings can go to 1,000hertz or something. Noibats can do something like a hundred times that? I don't remember.

I was thinking about catching Shelly, but that feels a little wrong.

But also not?

Can you tell how nervous I am? I can't even think about puking or I might actually throw up.

This is going to be so horrible. They're gonna laugh, I'm gonna be so screwed over, and my whole life is basically at its end.

Dani says I'm being over dramatic. At worst they stop being friends with us.

I like that she said us. Dani's a good friend. So is Sherri, now that I actually thought about it.

If you were wondering, Sherri has the flu.

So she's not going to be at the sleepover.

On top of all that, I still don't know how to fly. I asked Shelly if she could teach me, but she said she couldn't call the pokecenter if something went wrong. She also had no idea how bat wings work.

This is honestly terrible. Like, everything.

I'm very much panicking. Is this what a panic attack feels like? Because I'm definitely feeling the panic.

Maybe I should catch Shelly.

There's just to much going on right now. I can't cope. I'm so overwhelmed. I'm totally having a panic attack.

I feel like I'm juggling, and have to toss the balls to someone else while I'm juggling.

Except I don't really know how to juggle, so it's taking all my energy just to juggle in the first place, so I can't toss the balls to the other person. And on top of all that, the other person is tossing balls to me.

How do you juggle? I don't know how good I can catch with four fingers. Or, three fingers and a thumb.

There are quite a few things I can't do with three fingers. Well, not really 'can't do,' more 'have to relearn how to do'.

Like writing. My handwriting is so much worse now.

Kudos to anyone with four fingers. Also, can you teach me how to write again? I don't have a pinky. On either hand.