Devotion (Jamaican🇯🇲) COMPLETED

Chapter 29

"Would you believe me if I say I'm in love?
BABY I WANT YOU TO WANT ME.
She got me up all night all I'm singing is love songs...- jcole power trip❤️

1 year

Sergio

I sat in my room with the 50th blunt staring at wedding pictures of the girl of my dreams, the girl who made my heart throb since I was 2 years old before I could even speak well, the girl who lights my world up, her long black curly hair perfectly pinned back how I always liked when she wore it to church, her slim little figure and her enchanting dark skin beautiful as a angel as her cheeks lit up in smiles at the love of her life. I held back vommit that all escaped from the strong alcohol I was drinking. My lips quivered as I squeezed my eyes shut wishing this all was a dream. Wishing I'd wake up out of it.

Weak of any strength in me I heard my own voice crying defeated like I was alittle boy again and my mother beat me and sent me to bed.

How could someone have so much power to make you feel like the luckiest person on earth then in a couple months a peace of shit laying in their room dying from starvation of not being able to eat by choice? Snot strains filled my nose and tears soak my puffy cheeks.

Still not being able to BELIVE what's in front of me I tried to call her but I was blocked on ever account on everything. Left confused to pick up the pieces. Left to figure out her and Jermaine were together and now I NEVER EXISTED IN HER WORLD.  It was as if all our moments all our laughs all our kisses went out of her heard, and the one who she really love was all she could see.

I WAS ABANDONED. Like garbage. HEART BROKEN WASNT NOTHING COMPARED YO WHAT I FELT.

I felt used and SPAT ON AND THROWN AWAY.

Jealousy AND SUCH ANGER

Me just as handsome as Jermaine and have money just like him!!!!!!!!!! What Jermaine have wah me don't have?????

ME FUCK HAR GOOD!

And me can buy bigger ring!!!!

And bigger house and bigger car and land and more clothes any jewelry she want and DIAMONDS AND EVERYTHING SHE ASK!

Ms.rose fit her better than Ms Brown! SHE LOOK BETTER WITH ME!

I'm pathetic, weak,

Real man nuh sit down and bawl over a girl wah make it be known seh dem don't interested in them. Real men don't beg a girl

Real man just move on. But here I was for the 100th night, a big spliff in my hand and my shot red eyes and face filled with snot, hands shaking holding the phone looking at wedding pictures. Loud cry's of heartbreak left my silent mouth as I screamed in pain. Tears dripped down my face.

I let it all out of me. Every pain every anger every hurt everything I was holding in I let it all out of me.

"Yuh tell me seh yuh fucking love me!!!!!

"Yuh tell me yuh feel the same way me feel about you!!! Yuh tell me say yuh want me!

"Yuh tell me say yuh care bout meee!!!

"Yuh tell me yuh love me!!!" I cried.

"Then one day out of the blue yuh block me pan everything yuh don't even have the heart say with yo mouth say yuh don't want nothing with me no more yuh just block me pan everything and me affi look offa strange phone fi see yuh MARRIED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!