My boy / Drew Starkey

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Mila

I turn to look up at him. We don't say a word we just look into each others eyes. I felt as though there was no one there. Just him and I. In a world of our own. My mind was blank I felt like I had no control over my body as I take a step closer to him. We were so close to one another, almost touching. He takes a step closer to me now our hands which were by our sides were inches from touching. It took everything in me now to take his hand into mine, but I just stand there looking up into his eyes. He brings his hands up to my face and cups it. His soft touching sending shivers down my spine. My body relaxes with his touch as he brings his face down closer to mine. I felt like this was all happening in slow motion. There was a force pulling my body towards his. We were inches away from each other. Our lips almost touching and just like that such a small things brings me back into reality. His phone loudly rings in his pocket and like a kid being caught doing something they shouldn't be I take a few steps away from him. His hands fall to his side as he does nothing. He continues to look at me. I scrunch my eyebrows at him as he does nothing about his phone ringing. He doesn't say a word doesn't look away. "You should answer that." I say to him finally breaking the silence that felt like it was going on forever. He pulls his phone out of his pocket and looks at it. The first time he has looked away since this whole moment just happened. I glance over at his phone and see Kiara's name. Without thinking I say to him "Come down when you're done." I walk past him grazing my shoulder with his body and walk down those stairs we were so happily walking up just a few moments ago. It took everything in me not to turn around and look at him. It took everything in me not to check if he was looking at me walking away, but I didn't I just walked down the steps and around the tree back to our seat. I sat there immediately taking a cigarette out of my pack and lighting it up. The last thing I ever wanted to do or be was a home wrecker and that's not something I was going to do. I was stupid so fucking stupid for not realising that they were probably still together or figuring things out and there I was almost kissing him. My mind going wild as I tried to compose myself for it to not be seen. I sat there waiting for him to come, time felt like an eternity I just sat smoked and looked at the water fall down the fountain. He sat in front of me I closed my eyes for a split second before taking a small breath and turning to look at him. I don't know what am I feeling what type of emotions these are. As I look at him I smile "This was really nice of you Drew" I say trying my hardest to not show any emotion other than joy. I take a hit from my cigarette, I smoked more when I was anxious or in any type of situation that I didn't want to be in or didn't know what to say. He took a quick moment observing me i'm guessing he was trying to read me and how to respond to what the fuck just happened between us. "Im really glad you like it, we can make this a regular thing" he says as my instinct was to take another hit from my cigarette. This gave me more time to collect my thoughts to think about what he just said and how to respond. I wanted to say 'Yes that would be great we should all come here the whole cast' or 'yeah that would be great all of us' but instead I just smiled and have him a slight nod. He insisted on paying and so he did. I couldn't tell if we were up in that treehouse for hours or only a few minutes. Time was crazy when I was with him. As we made our way to the car all I could think about was how if only she called a few minutes later. Would we have kissed? would we have shared that moment with each other? Was this fate though? Was this a warning from whoever the fuck that no Drew and I are not supposed to kiss. Everything was moving quick and I felt like I couldn't keep up. We got to the beach and noticed that we still needed to change into our bathing suits. Drew came up with a good idea that we go to the closest cafe on the beach and use their bathrooms. As I walked into their my beach bag in my hand I put it on the counter. I look at myself in the mirror my mind going wild. This was not going to ruin today. This what happened was not going to affect anything. Everything needed to go back to how it was all fun and friendly. I splash some water on my face before going into the stall and changing into my swimsuit. As I walk out I see Drew give the waiter a 20 dollar bill before I push back my thoughts and grab Drews hand "Come" I say smiling at him and drag him onto the sandy beach. We put our things down as one by one everyone started coming. I was very happy to see everyone especially Rudy and Madison.