My boy / Drew Starkey

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Drew

That was something I wasn't expecting. The posts on their public Instagrams, what the fuck were both of them thinking posting something like that. They knew what they were doing posting this shit. The internet was going crazy. 

I even got some messages from friends of mine and Rudy's asking if 'our boy Rudy finally got a girl?' Why the fuck were they asking me this shit. I close my eyes and take a deep breath before feeling someone wrap their hands around me from the back and rest their head on the crook of my neck. The hot breath on my skin. 

"What's got you so distracted Hon?" Kiara says in her usual sweet tone, the tone she practically only uses with me.  "Nothing just trying to remember some lines that's all" I reply to her my tone colder than I anticipated it to be. 

She lets go of her embrace and walks to sit across from me. Her eyebrows are narrowed, her face hard to read. As she sits and looks at me her expression softens for a moment before it goes right back to unreadable. 

"Bullshit," she says cold and firm. I wasn't in the mood to deal with her at the moment or with anything to be honest. My mind was only on Mila, how she looked at me and how her cheeks turned red every time we touched. shittt I needed to get my shit together. 

"Wow," I hear Kiara mutter under her breath as it breaks me out of my thoughts. "Kiara," I say to her my voice softer now, more sincere. This gets her attention as her eyes look back at me. I could see sadness in them now, but she was trying hard to mask it. 

"I'm sorry, I've been fucked with my lines recently and I need to get on it. Jonas is going to kill me otherwise." I lie not only trying to convince her but also myself. I get up from my chair not breaking eye contact with her as I walk over to her. 

I cup her face and give her forehead a light kiss. My lips burn at the contact but not in the way you would expect. Not in the way your body and lips burn when you kiss someone you love. This was bitterness. I felt the guilt build up in my stomach as I faced her again. 

Her lips part and her eyes lower their gaze to my lips. She kisses me and the guilt is unbearing. I shouldn't be kissing her whilst thinking and imagining someone else. Her lips move against mine my body fighting the urge to pull away. 

Her tongue licks my lips wanting to enter but my body doesn't allow it and  finally pulls away. I open my eyes her gaze on me, sadness fills her eyes at the lack of contact. She looks at me confused as I lean in and kiss her lips again. This time just a peck this somehow brings a smile to her lips. 

"Promise?" she says breaking the silence between us. My heart started beating fast I could practically feel it in my chest. What was I supposed to say to this? Was I supposed to lie? 

"Promise," I say my mouth moving faster than my mind could. She smiles at me and gets up from her seat. Pecks my lips one last time before walking away to the kitchen. Fuckkk. 

I reach over to grab my phone that was on the table and open messages. I needed to talk to Mila I needed to see her. My fingers moved faster than my brain could stop them. 

message to Mila

Drew

I need to talk to you

as my fingers press send my mind finally catches up to what I've done. I shouldn't have texted her this. She was with Rudy plus how could I do this shit to Kiara. She doesn't reply and after a few minutes of staring at my screen and waiting for her reply, I start typing again.