𝔚𝔞𝔯 𝔬𝔣 ℌ𝔢𝔞𝔯𝔱𝔰 // 𝔍𝔞𝔪𝔢𝔰 𝔓𝔬𝔱𝔱𝔢𝔯

THIRTEEN || Lies and Pity

Estella

I chug down the last of my water as I sit in bed. I've just awoken from a terrible nightmare and I find myself not wanting even to close my eyes again.

What happened in my dream was my parents finding out about my and James's snog session a couple of weeks ago, and the many many more that have occurred over this time.

James and I have been meeting up every night either in the Library, an empty classroom, or the Room of Requirement. Not the common rooms though, that would be hard to explain if a student were to rightfully walk down the stairs and spot us together. And gossip spreads like wildfire at Hogwarts so our secret would be out.

Even though I wanted to take things slow, we've been all over each other. I can't help it, I've waited so long. But even though it feels so right, it feels terribly wrong at the same time. This wrong feeling comes from the fact that I am going against my family, and it sickens me most nights.

I can't choose between my family or James, I seriously can't. I refuse.

~

March 7th, 1975

A pair of large hands coil around my waist, holding me back from continuing walking. The presence is familiar, the feeling of the touch comforting.

"James," I breathe out slowly, tingles and electric sensations shooting throughout my body. "Hi."

"Hello, Stella," He grins and whispers, using one finger to move my hair onto one shoulder, and he kisses my neck where my raven-colored hair is no longer covering. I sigh contently, melting into his kiss.

I turn around, now facing him and I wrap my arms around his neck, staring up into his eyes, his warm, hazel eyes. 

"I missed you," He speaks now in his full voice, not his previous whisper.

"We saw each other in Transfiguration," I smile and giggle a little,

"Yeah, two hours ago."

"You're obsessed with me aren't you, Potter?"

"Took you long enough to realize." I get on my tip toes and press my lips onto his softly, but shortly.

"More where that came from, but we need to study,"

"Sorry, Stella, I can't tonight. I have something.."

"Er, Okay, no problem, I seem to get more work done while we aren't snogging the whole time anyway.."

"Thank you for understanding, I have to go, though, I'll see you tomorrow, alright?"

"Okay, see you tomorrow." he kisses me once more before turning on his heel and leaving.

That was odd, did James Potter just lie straight to my face?

~

After James took off after obviously lying to me, I headed to my dorm instead of the library. Vanya isn't here right now because she's with her girlfriend Lesley, so I have it to myself. 

I sigh as I turn the door knob and when I walk in, I'm surprised to see Sirius in there along with Narcissa.

"What the hell are you guys doing in here?" I inquire, dropping my book bag to the floor.

"We need to talk to you," Sirius says and stands up from my bed, walking over to me.

"okay...about what?"

"You were absent in that Herbology lesson where we handled the tantatucla plants, but you said that that's where you got those weirdly hand-shaped bruises from. You were not there. You were with Narcissa that day, you two skipped and went for a walk. So what were those marks truly from?" Sirius's tone was...different from his usual one. Normally he has humor in his voice, and he can't speak a single sentence without making a joke. But the seriousness in his voice was alarming, the worry in his eyes rare.