Enzo

Regret

Enzo's pov:

I lost her and it's killing me slowly.

Fuck, how could I let this happen. I brushed my hands through my hair while I was sitting at my desk. I just let her leave, how stupid am I
I sent her away.

She had me wrapped around her finger, I would do anything for her but it's too late now. I pushed her away like I always did.

She had pointed it out but now she left.
I made her leave.

Maybe it was for the best, she is better off without me. I knew I was going to fuck it up, Ive hurt her too many times.

I lost the two important people in my life.
Lilly and Clara.

Don't get me started on Clara. I can't explain what I felt, what I feel when I think about her. She was my daughter, I lost my daughter.

That's what I saw when Lilly woke up from her coma, I didn't see her for a week because I locked myself up in my room to handle my grief. The moment Lilly woke up, unknown what happened I couldn't look at her. I saw how happy I was with her and Clara and that didn't exist anymore, it will never exist anymore.

She may never forget me and she has every reason to not accept my apology but I am going to apologize.

"Idiot" Rafe shouted as he walked in and threw a paper in front of me.
"What" I growled back at him.

"You're the stupidest and biggest idiot alive." he pointed at the paper. I couldn't believe my eyes by what was written on the front page.

Lillian Bianchi and Nico Rossi are engaged.

Under the title was a picture of them. Were they supposed to look inlove or was Nico just a funny guy? Her smile was clearly fake and forced.

My eyes fell to her eyes, her once filled joy eyes were empty. Her spark gone, the mafia did not take it away.
I did.

I wanted to grab a gun and shoot myself in the head.

"You are the biggest dick ive seen, go to her Lorenzo." Rafe said
"Didn't you see the picture, she is happy with Nico" I let myself believe that.
"We both know this is fake, remember what he did to her?" Rage filled my body.
"Get out Rafe"

I looked back at the photo and tore the paper in half.

"Miauwww"
"Not now Louise" I said as I saw her playing with my shoelace. She jumped in my lap and started purring.
"I know" I pet her head as she meowed again. 

I was so desperate.

I grabbed a paper and started writing. I've been writing everyday, hopefully I will have a chance to give them to Lilly.

My love,
I saw today that you were engaged. It was quite the surprise I must say. I am not going to say anything about the person you're with because you already know my opinion. I just hope in the deepest of my heart that you will find happiness and love. I regret everything, every word I said to you that day. Take care of yourself Lilly x
Lorenzo

Louise fell asleep as I worked some more, trying to distract my mind.

...

Lilly's pov:

"You're doing it wrong" Lando muttered to me, he was teaching me how to throw knives which I suck at.

Lando was very good at it. He said it was his specialty and every throw he did was on the target so I must believe him.

"Your focus needs to be on your body and the flow, the rest will go by itself." He placed his hand on my waist, pulling me closer to him. His hand trailing up my arm. His breathing in my ear.

"I'm sorry" I stepped away, this was getting too intense.

I saw the confusion on his face. "Is everything alright?"
"Yea, just a little hot in here." I pulled my shirt over my shoulders, sweat covering my body.

I've been training for 8 hours straight, everybody left but I needed to stay here till twelve. Nico probably had a bunch of girls at his place. The other night I came home, exhausted, needing a shower. When out of nowhere there were a ton of girls in the living room and in my bathroom.
My bathroom, there were probably ten bathrooms in the house and they choose mine. That's not something you want after an exhausting day.

Lando tried to look away respectfully,
"Are you going to teach me or not." I laughed at him, "Yea" he said, a bit nervous.

I wonder why my dad made me marry Nico and not Lando. Nico is thirty, Lando is twentyfive. Lando is more mature and handsome compared to Nico. Lando is overall the better brother.

But is he better than... my mind wandered of

No Lillian, do not think about him.

I had been trying to get Enzo out of my mind, It's been hard but I accepted it. We were over, he made that very clear and now I have to move on with my life. He has probably a bunch of hookers around him and I need to get over it. I have blamed myself for what happened for a very long time, it was his choice to yell at me, it was his choice to send me out. Not mine.

Lando grabbed me again, in the same position. This time it felt different, it wasn't intense. It felt normal, his cold skin touching mine. Goosebumps formed and I blushed a bit.

He moved my body and we threw the dagger. Right in the heart.

"Good job" Lando patted my shoulder. "Thankyou" I said while I went to take out the dagger of the cardboard to try again. This time on my own.

"I hit it" this was the first time I did it all by myself.

I catched my breath as I realized what I just did. I jumped in Lando's arms. He held me firmly and strongly, our eyes connecting.

He leaned in...