love song ౨ৎ

5 - toxic

i open my eyes, slowly waking up, taking in my surroundings, all very dark.

"good morning, sleeping beauty!" Amira bursts in, holding a mug in each hand "made us some coffee"

"i love you"

she places a mug in my hand and goes to open the blindss but i don't have the energy to complain. i realize i'm in my room, and she's wearing my pijamas.

i take a sip from my coffee and i already feel a little better. i look at Amira, a mischievous smile tugging at my lips. "so?"

she sits in front of me, crossing her legs. her expression speaks for itself but she goes on to tell me how perfect her nigh with Sebastian was. how he'd been so gentle with her, Amira felt like crying. how he didn't pressure her and just let her know, she's safe around him. they talked, a lot, about life. recounting the day they met, as little kids: she punched his bully! they instantly became best friends but lost contact after 5th grade and only reconnected this year. he said that it was a blessing to hug her again. that he loved her more than anything in the world.

"i want to give you my love, if you want it, of course he said. and i just laid there, head on his chest, listening to his heart beat." she concludes.

i'm almost tearing up. their relationship sounds like it's straight out of a movie. i wonder if i'll ever find someone like that. but right now, i can only be joyful for this amazing girl who is sitting in front of me.
i hug her. "i'm so happy for you, Amira. you deserve nothing less than that."

"thank you, jenny. i feel bad i left you alone though-"

i interrupt her "no! i was fine, really!"

she takes her phone from my nightstand and shows me a video of a girl, disastrously, singing and dancing to Toxic by Britney Spears, in the backseat of a car. the person behind the camera wheezing makes it even funnier.

"thats's you, in the back of Trent's car."

"oh shit" it all hits me suddenly. the bathroom, trent's lips on mine, his hands holding my hair while i throw up.

"Trent called Sebastian and i to the bathroom, you weren't unconscious, but i was really scared!" she tells me, looking genuinely frightened by recalling that moment. "Trent was driving us to the hospital but then you came back to your senses after hearing Toxic on the radio." i start laughing, almost uncomfortably and so does Amira. "he brought us to your house, i got you to bed, and you slept like a little baby!" she says mockingly. i'm still chuckling, as i process this information. i take a last sip and put the empty mug on the bed table.

"also, you got some explaining to do." she says as if she suddenly realized that Trent and i were in the bathroom together.

"I know, i know." i say placing my head in my hands. i glimpse at Amira "but he was such a good kisser!"

"JEN–"