What Do We Do Now?

6

We went out to lunch before coming back to the academy. By the time we got back it was around 3pm and I felt like I had been pretty productive. "When do the girls get back?" I asked her as she sat at the table drinking her tea. I was walking about the kitchen, thinking about what I wanted to drink. I settled on tea as well since there was extra hot water in the kettle. I walked back over once I had finished making it and sat next to her. "Umm what day is it?" she asked curiously which made me laugh but then I realized I didn't know either.

So I laughed even harder before finally catching my breath and answering. "Wednesday" I said after thinking about it and checking my phone. "They'll be back in 3 days" she said certainly and I sighed. Well at least I had time to prepare for meeting them. "Don't worry, they're all really nice. Nan is probably the sweetest of them all, though you have to be careful cause she's clairvoyant. Zoe is really nice too and she'll probably be the one helping you" she said thoughtfully and I listened intently as she told me about each girl.

"Queenie is tough but she's a sweetheart, she's a hugger so be prepared. Madison is... a little more difficult, she's the partier, kind of the wild one of the bunch. She's nice once you get to know her but she's very blunt as well. She'll probably be the one bombarding you with questions, she says pretty much whatever is on her mind. She can be rough around the edges at times, but she cares" she said, laughing a bit. They sounded pretty easy to get along with, especially since I had an idea of what they were like. I trusted Cordelia's opinion a lot. I mean she knew them a lot better than me.

"I meant to ask you earlier, but I didn't know if you'd be comfortable with it..." she says trailing off. I look directly into her eyes and she looks almost... scared? "What is it?" I ask curiously, "about the fight you and your mom had. What was it about?" she asked cautiously and I nodded. I knew it had to come at some point I was just hoping she'd drop it. I wasn't scared to tell her, I felt like she'd understand, but still it wasn't pleasant.

Cordelia's pov
I could tell she was hesitant about telling me and I was about to tell her she didn't have to. But she started talking so I closed my mouth and let her. "Well... basically she was listening in on a phone conversation I was having. I thought she was sleeping but she was very much awake. She stormed into my room and threw my phone, that's why it's cracked like this" she said showing me her phone and I nodded. I could tell she was trying to prolong it and avoid telling me for a while longer. "She found out I was gay" she said shrugging but I could tell she was nervous.

"Well that's bullshit" I said seriously and her head shot up to look at me. I could tell she was confused and she looked a bit scared. I didn't want her to think I was unsupportive so I elaborated. "I mean you being gay isn't a reason for her to flip out like that. It's not a choice, it's just something that happens. I'll get your phone fixed" I said, she didn't deserve that at all. I saw her eyes began to fill with tears but I didn't exactly know why. Suddenly she threw herself into my arms and I set down my tea and hugged her tightly.

She cried softly for a bit and I just rubbed her back soothingly. I knew it would happen at some point and I guess I hit a soft spot. I could tell she was holding on to a lot of trauma and I knew she would release some eventually. She pulled away slowly and I wiped the tears off her rosy cheeks. She produced a soft smile and sat back down in her chair. "You have no idea how much that means to me" she said softly. "I may have a slight idea..." I started, I guess now was as good a time as ever.

"When my mom found out I was bisexual she was... upset to say the least. She told me that I was an abomination to our lineage. That I needed to have children and that wouldn't happen with a woman. So I denied it for a long time but eventually just accepted it. That's why I divorced my husband, turns out I couldn't have kids anyway" I said with a tightlipped smile. "Sorry for dumping my shit on you" I said nervously looking down. "It's ok. That sounds really hard, I'm sorry. I mean I basically trauma dumped on you too" she said with a soft chuckle.

I looked up at her and nervously bit my lip, I couldn't get over how cute her laugh is.