Love

18 - I love you too

Mile

I look at my husband swollen lips who sleep now. I am so angry when i know what is in his mind. He never trust me. Honestly i will die for him. After a long thought, i finally smile. He is the only one who can make my life upside down like this. The only one who can make me laugh sincerely. I know i am more quiet compare to him, but i change 360 degree from my previous self. He unconciously make me forgot about my parent death. I never have a nightmare after married to him. He is my savior, how could he thought of me leaving him. I am sorry baby, but you will stuck with me forever, i said and kiss his head gently. I am greatful that he choose to retire himself. I know he have soft heart but very stubborn. He wont retired if i ask him to retire. I need to play it right. Its only a small cut. Bible my trusted friend, make sure the bullet just grazed my skin.

The news and media keep releasing article about my husband break from industry. I make sure all of his fans and brand respect his decision. He now enjoy golfing with metawin. I am really thankful to luke and metawin. They alway visit my husband even i know its hard for luke to do that. Just like me, he is busyman. you sure love to do it hard way, luke said while he keep looking at metawin. You treat him as a business matter, that why he felt unsecured, luke said again. That make me look at luke. Win ask me, why you dont love bright, but keep him close to you, he felt pity for bright and start to hate you. He make me promise to hate you too, luke said and chuckle. I look at luke with wide eyes. They are that close, they will share everything, you should notice that. Luke said again. You better settle it before my bunny make me see you in secret. He is scary when he angry, luke said again and look at win dearly. I can see so much love in luke eyes.
I love him, i really do, i said clearly. Have you told him, luke ask and look at me. I look at luke. Both of them are very simple minded. Its only yes or no in their dictionary. So you have to make it clear, luke said. They dont even care if you bought an island of gold for them if you are not telling them clearly. You can die for them, but its still no if you are not clearly confess to him, luke said. He get involve because of his bunny keep worry about his best friend.
Even all people in underworld know not to touch your husband, even all of people in the world teasing you because you are so whipped with your husband, it does not matter to him, because he wont understand your action. He need clear confession, and that will make me stop coming to your mansion every day. My bunny cant relax and worry if he dont see bright every day, luke said and chukle. That also make me laugh. So that why you become regular here, i ask. Yes, help me, i am busy person luke said.

I look at my husband who now enjoy his donut and sit on my sofa at my office.
Baby, i call him softly. He look at me, annoyed because i interupt his sweet time. But like always he come to me.
Lets go for honeymoon, i said.
He look at me with wide eyes. No, i dont want he said quickly. I know he must be worry about our relation and intimate moment. I manage to slot in a week for our honeymoon, where do you prefer to go i ask him and pull him on my lap. Can we not go, he ask me slowly. No, we need to go, i said. Since he break from the industry, i have more free time. I dont need to adjust to his crazy schedule. I only focus on my jons and i dont need to plan to be intimate with him. I can make love to him anytime now, because he is not tied to any schedule. He schedule is to be with me all the time. He look more comfortable and accept my pervert self better, even he still shy everytime we being intimate.

Are you okay, i ask him who now sit on the swing at one of our private island in maldives. He look a bit disturbed. Baby, i call him and gently lift him and make him sit on my laps. He look at me with uncertain eyes. What wrong, i ask him.
We should not do this, he said slowly. Honeymoon should be with someone who love each other, he said. I felt like you are force to be with me here, he said. I dont care about honeymoon, its already too late for that , he said  again. I know i am being ignorant because its already near to 2 years from our marriage. I understand why he felt this is something i forced to do. But i really dont have the luxury to do this before because i just take over my grandpa position. I try hard this one and half year to make sure everything is in order. He become my reason to work hard and become a great leader. Honeymoon is always priority in my list to do. After the long strugle i finally manage to bring him here. I wont let anything to disturb our special time.

What are you doing, he ask when i casually pull of my sleeveless shirt and topless behind him. He look so burn and red. I grab his hand and bring his hand to my heart. He now look at me with his big eyes. You are always in here i said. But since you cant see how i feel, i will make sure you see how i feel, i said and he now look dearly at my tattoo with the tears. I dont know how you feel, but i love you since the day i meet you, i said clearly. There will be no one beside you here, i said again and put his hand on my heart. I love you baby, i said again clearly. He carefully carress my tattoo. What take you so long, i am so scare, he said with full of tears. I am sorry baby i said gently wipe his tears. I love you too he said slowly.

15.09.23