Loving Alessandro

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My chest swells immediately as I entire the bathroom. I feel like all walls around me are closing in and I can't escape.

I hate this. I hate walking and talking and smiling and pretending. I hate Lauren and Alessandro and feeling like the dumbest third wheel in the entire world. I truly can't stand Lauren and I can't stand being here a second longer.

I press my palms against the marble sink and allow my chest to rise and fall dramatically. I know I'm having one of my panic attacks but I don't have my brothers to help me. I don't have Tyson to help me recover and eat something sickly sweet to ease my mind. I don't have Lionel to go on long drives with and talk about everything under the sun. And I don't have Gervais to watch stupidly funny movies with.

"Back the fuck off Alessandro." I hear a voice yell. The door slams open but I'm too tunneled vision to turn my head. "Do you hear me?" The voice echos.

My body is pushed and I feel it slam against the bathroom wall. I know I should look up and defend myself but I'm stuck. I feel empty and can barely breathe.

"Do you fucking hear me? I see your tactics. Don't think for one second-" I look up to Lauren and my hand goes flying to her face.

I slap her, hard. A red mark forms immediately and her crazy eyes take over.

"No you didn't you bitch-" She grabs my body and slams it against the tile of the sink I fall onto the floor and clutch my ribcage in pain.

Her fingers jab into my collarbones as she pushes me against the ground tiles and shakes me around. One of her hands keeps me there while the other forms into a fists. She sends a punch my way but I turn my head to the left and she punches the ground with full force.

She winces and shrieks so loud my ears ring. I take her moment of weakness and punch her in the stomach directly. Lurching over I hear her cough and try to control her breathing.

I sprint out the door but feel her right on my tail. Shit, was all of Alessandro training for this bitch?

I feel my body dragged back to the bathroom so I clutch onto the doorframe from letting me get far. She manages to hit my jaw and I feel a huge bruise form. I send a kick her way and feel her let go.

Act normal. Totally normal. I walk down the hall and spot Alessandro immediately. He is talking to a man in a beige suit and I regretfully feel relieved at the sight of him. I tame my hair down with my hands frantically and pull my shirt down.

"What happened to you?" He immediately scans my entire body. I know I look like a mess, but at the moment I couldn't give a shit.

"Let's go." I state. "I want to go Alessandro." I repeat myself.

"It was nice to meet you, we'll talk later." He nods and shakes hands with the man he was talking to before turning his whole attention towards me.

I huff and breathe out as Alessandro presses a hand against the small of my back and leads me towards the elevator.

We enter and I stand away from him and look up to the ceiling while thinking of all the different ways I could kill Lauren. My jaw clenches and it takes everything in me not to cry. I brush my tongue against my teeth as I calm myself down.

"You're quite for once." Alessandro tucks his hands in his front pockets and leans against the elevator railing. "What happened."

I choose not to answer him. The bell rings once we hit the main level. A man immediately runs to the doors and holds a key out.

"Sir, your keys." With that he scurries away.

We leave the elevator and I choose to give Alessandro the silent treatment. If it wasn't for his bitch of a girlfriend to attack me, I'd never have a raging headache or a thirst to pull a gun to her temples.

Alessandro holds open the door and I enter the car with out facing him once.

Rain drizzles on the roof and I look toward the pitch black sky. It felt like minutes but we must've been in that building for hours. I wasn't even having too much of a bad time, that was until Lauren came along.

"Why are you angry." Alessandro holds his gaze steady on the road. Both hands clenching on the wheel. "Are you jelo-"

"Don't fucking finish that sentence." I pull my hands across my chest. "You two deserve each other. Both arrogant and cruel."

"Cruel.." He repeats as if he never saw the red marks forming on my face.

"Did I stutter? Your bitch slapped me in the face."

Alessandro swerves for a second and I shriek at the movement. He pulls over to a parking garage and everything is silent and still. So silent I'm afraid to take a breath.

"She slapped you?" He parks the car. A light flickers from a few yards away but it brightens the entire garage.

"Are you blind? How could you not see it." I seethe.

His fingers guide my jaw towards him, and he scans my face. Finding the marks and his jaw clenches and he nods. He pulls his hand down as he turns back on the engine and pulls the lever into drive.

"We'll take care of this." He grits through his teeth.

"Alessandro," I let my hand linger on his. "I just want to go back to the house. I'm tired."

"She's not getting away with this." He looks at me like I've grown two heads. "Why aren't you a little bit angry at the situation?"

"If you haven't noticed, I've been angry this entire time." I huff. "I'm over it. I don't want to be paraded to your stupid events. Or talk with your jealous hook ups. I'm done." I curl my hands up in frustration.

"I'm so sorry Elise." He takes a deep breath in. "You say the word and I'll have her gone."

I groan. "You're not even getting the point." I shake my head.

He furrows his brows as he looks between my eyes. "What, can I do. I want to help." He pulls his hands down from the wheel and sets the car back into park.

"I don't know how longer I can do this Alessandro." I let my tears escape. "I miss my brothers and my dad. I know my father is a terrible person but, your world is so much more cruel and harsh." I shake my head. Tears roll down my cheek before I can stop them and my cheeks sweel at the thought of showing weakness.

"you are very strong Elise." He pulls my face in his palms. "Do you understand that?"

I say nothing as I look into his golden eyes.

"Tell me you understand." He repeats.

I nod but the look in eyes tells me that was not enough. "I understand." I whisper.

Then and there something took over my body and I hoisted my body up and kissed him. I expected him to be in shocked but he responded quickly.

I kissed him like my life depended on it and he kissed me as if he was giving me life. He deepened his hand through my hair and I felt my lower abdomen throb.

His hand glided down to my waist and he pulled me over the center console to sit on his lap.

I pulled away and looked between his eyes. "This means nothing." I announce.

"Ok." He looks between my eyes and then down to my lips. "This means nothing." He repeats.

With that he grabs my hair into palm and pulls me towards him. I hold in a moan as I feel our lips connect and deepen.

I let myself go as I float away into his kisses. Until I feel my body want more, as it starts to move against his lap. My body wants it, and my mind too but my rational takes control. I pull away and place my hands against his chest.

"Alessandro. I want to go back to the house now." I look away.

He nods before looking over my face and staring at my blushed lips. I swiftly return to my seat and look out the passenger window. He reverses out of his parking spot and drives home like a F1 driver.

I hold onto my seat as I brace myself for his insane driving and for my replaying of our kiss.

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