Darkness Within

A new Adriana Black

(two years later)

TW: Addiction, Drugs

Adriana POV:

3 years. I had been in a relationship with Tom Riddle for 3 years now. In all honesty, it was the worse 3 years of my life. He had changed me, since the loss of my baby, I changed. I was unforgiving, emotionless, depressed.

He had moulded me into exactly what he had always imagined I could be. A powerful women to sit beside him on his hypothetical throne. One that was made upon the blood of others. I suppose, on the surface, it did seem like that.

With each Horcrux he made, he had become so much darker than anyone of us could ever imagine.

He recruited more and more followers, and had created a special mark to signal their loyalty to his cause. One I had still managed to evade.

Abraxas was still his right hand man, he was compliant and didn't ask questions, and he always wanted to stay close to me.

My father had died by then, and my mother oddly felt free. For the first time in her life she could do as she pleased, I think she was in Portugal at the moment. I envied her. She was free, but I was still trapped.

Sat on the end of a long table at my family home, sporting my newest black eye, I stare at nothing while Tom directs his followers.

I zone out a lot. Since my miscarriage, I had found a new comfort in various 'medicines'. The drugs and the pills made living my life a lot easier, I was either too high to cause a problem, or too high to remember the consequence.

There was still love for Tom somewhere inside me, but I couldn't forgive him for what he'd done. Not to me- that didn't matter. But to my unborn child. My baby. Not a day goes by where I don't think about that day.

And on the two year anniversary. Today. It was so much worse. I felt angry, If it weren't for this stupid meeting. I would be drowning myself in alcohol and prescriptions. My body was shaking, needing the vice of a substance- any substance, just to take the pain away.

"Right, you're dismissed." Tom finally says as the now called deatheaters file out of the house. I am quick to near sprint out until he stops me.

"Not you love." He smiles and gestures me to sit and I do so.

"Abraxas and I feel like you need some help darling. You're not doing too good are you?" He asks and I shake my head.

I hadn't been doing "good" in a long time, but in the past year or so I have been much much worse. My memory is shockingly terrible, I have seizures, I black out.

"We've made an appointment at St Mungos for you. You must go. Abraxas here will take you." He says and I shake my head again.

"No. I don't want to go. I refuse." I state, standing up about to storm out.

"That's why we made the appointment for today, you need help love. We knew you'd try to resist. You are going and that is that.

"No Tom, what do you think they'll assume when they see this?" I ask, gesturing to my eye.

"You are testing my patience love, tell them you were so out of your mind on those pills you take that you fell." He sneers.

"Drugs I take to put up with this god awful life you dragged me in!" I yell.

"Stop! Abraxas get her out of my sight now. Or do you want matching eyes?" He threatens and I grit my teeth. I imagine I would be punished when I did come back.

"Please Adi, come on." Abraxas pleads and I never could say no to him. Merlin, I wish I had married him.

...

After all the tests and scans, Abraxas and I wait anxiously in the waiting room.

"Why didn't you want to come Adi?" He asks and I sigh.

"Because I know something is wrong with me, I know my body. Whatever they say, it's not going to be good." I explain and he nods his head as I nervously bite my nails, shaking a leg up and down.

"It's today isn't it? I'd never forget it. I'm sorry, you had to go through all that." He says sincerely as he wraps an arm around my shoulder.

"Yet Tom is none the wiser, remember what an 'accident' it was." I say sarcastically. "But I never did say thank you to you for everything you did, everything you've always done for me Brax. You've always been there." I soften my tone.

"If I was always there, you would have never been introduced to this life... I hate myself for that you know." He confesses and although we've spoken about this countless of times, I don't reply. He simply won't accept that Tom and I would have met through Abraxas eventually. That he would have demanded the end of the relationship. Our fate, was set in stone.

"Adriana Black?"