Darkness Within

Mum

We caught a very early flight to Portugal in the morning, i sent word to mother and she sent me the address.

It's so bright and colourful, I'm not sure how I'd fare in a country like this. But it is beautiful, you cannot deny that.

Her house is absolutely massive, located in a secluded part just on the outskirts of a jungle area. Very modern and equally as bright as the outside. The difference between this house and mine is night and day.

She frowns when she first looks at me and places a hand to my cheek.

"Your poor beautiful face Adriana." She murmers.

Brax stays inside as my mother and I look out towards the jungle on the balcony.

"How does it feel now father's gone?" I ask her.

"Oh baby, at first i was heartbroken. I spent over 30 years with that man afterall, but he was a horrible man. After a few weeks, of appropriate grieving, I started to feel better. I felt free." She explains.

"Adriana it is bliss, for the first time in my life, I can live how I want, I loved your father but he was nasty. When he passed, I felt like he had finally unshackled the chains he put on me. He finally let me go, and I thank him for that. Why do you ask? Are you leaving Tom?" She asks.

I already knew that i didn't want to tell my mother what was going to happen, she seemed so happy in her new life, one without me really, I didn't want her to try and change my mind.

"Yes." I say, imagining it's the simplist way that I could tell her, without actually telling her.

"Good, you know I wasn't too keen on him. Your father unfortunately was. Good on you Adriana, get out while you can. You have the utmost respect from me for that, doing what I never could." She says, a faint smile on her lips.

"You know I wanted you to be with Abraxas. I've always seen how you too look at eachother. I know you love Tom to a certain extent, but I'm not sure if it is reciprocated. But you know you love Abraxas. You can't deny it child. I see everything." She says, a new  knowing smile.

"I guess I always have. I just realised too late." I shrug.

It's not a lie, I would have done anything Tom asked of me, once upon a time, especially when we first met. However, with each and every beating I've recieved over the years, it's eaten away at that devotion bit by bit.

Abraxas. If there was anyway that we could have ran away together, I would have in a heartbeat. He's the complete opposite of Tom. We love eachother, I'm pretty sure Tom is well aware of that. We've never said that we love eachother, not since he confessed his feelings to me that night on the tower, but we didn't need to. We could look, but merlin forbid we touch.

How different life would have been if I hadn't met Tom Riddle.

"Adi, it's getting on a bit, we should go." Abraxas calls out and I nod.

"Maybe we shouldn't leave it as long to see eachother again." My mother smiles and pulls me into a hard hug.

"I love you mum."

"I love you too, my beautiful child. Look after yourself."