Days I spend with you.

Chapter 20

I braced my self before entering the garden where I saw Zion sat at the steps looking at the sun that was setting down, it truly was a beautiful sight, I took a seat besides him not saying anything. "Do you prefer sunsets or sunrise?" His question seemed a little odd but I still answer "I prefer sunsets"
He nodded, "why, they're the same thing just in opposite ways". It felt like he wasn't talking about the sun anymore it sounded like he was talking about him and Atlas. "Because the sunset is the peace after a horrible day, while the sunrise is the illusion of beauty and calm before the ruin".
He turned to me before smiling, "that is a beautiful way to describe it" everything went silent again. "Zion, I hope you know I appreciate you, you have been kind to me since I've come here and I want to thank you".
"You know that I like you right"
I nodded surprised he went straight to the point. "At first I thought my attraction for you would disappear but the more I got to know you the more I liked you, and I know I can't have you" he stopped what he was saying and looked down at my neck, memories from earlier replayed in my mind, Of course atlas had to show everyone I was his, he left at least 5 huge hickeys all over my neck and chest but I did the exact same thing to him. I felt myself flush from his strong gaze. "I don't want you two to fight over me' I'm flattered I mean nobody has ever shown me interest and I'm still surprised that two amazingly attractive guys want me, but Zion I do not like you more then a friend"
He was smirking at me "amazingly attractive huh"  
"Did you listen to anything I just said"
He didn't reply but started flexing his biceps in my face and doing that thing with his pecs where they move up and down. I let out a little giggle, there was nothing like Zion's arrogance. He stopped flaunting and looked down at me. "You are still my friend Anisah a small attraction won't stop me from being your friend but I won't lie and say my feeling will go in a day it'll take a while" his cheeks slightly reddened and his eyes were cast down the confident man he was a second ago seemed to disappear, and there was only one way to get him back again. "You know Zion your the only man I know who rocks blue hair and makes it look amazing" . His eyes lit up like a shooting star and boom he was back.
"Now that is true. I mean everyone else looks like a clown but blue is totally my colour, Atlas says I don't look professional I say he's just jealous" he shrugged his shoulders laughing while I rolled my eyes at this goof.
"We're still friends right Zion" he scoffed before getting up and pulling me up with him. He hugged me to his chest before patting my head, "of course we're still friends silly I can have someone else to bully now instead of Manny"

After clearing the air with Zion everything in me felt better and less tense, I was actually smiling today I don't remember the last time I had a genuine smile and not the fake one I always used to give to customers when I would work. I felt oddly refreshed.  i saw Bear walking through the hallways and called his name, he looked up at me before coming to walk besides me, "have you seen Atlas or Manny." we both took a seat near the living room window where the rain was pouring down fast and heavy. "they are both in a meeting and the rest of the guys are out doing their duties "Bear was a cutie he had a scar going down his face but he also has the cutest freckles all over his nose and cheeks. 

"how long have you known Atlas for". his eyes seemed to glaze over and he smiled softly, "we grew up together, we both went to the same boarding school, i was the head boy of our year and he was the delinquent who always got into trouble with Zion. I didn't like him at first he came out of nowhere and ruined the peace i created, he always got into fights and even turned the nerds into assholes" i giggled at that, Atlas never looked like a trouble maker that's seemed more fit for Manny. 

" i remember one day he came into class with bruises all over his arms and when i asked him he started throwing a fit and told me to mind my own business, but i knew something was up. i was a good boy and got good grades and kept everyone happy and even though i was not a fan of Atlas i knew something was wrong with him. it took him a while but we did eventually become friends even though almost everyone told me to stay away from him he told me about his fathers ways of teaching discipline, when his mother was alive Atlas was happy, there was a light in his eyes and he was always going out to nice places and just being a happy teenager, but when she died he changed and became a new different person, no longer causing trouble he would stay in his room and would never leave. he loved his mum so much she cared for him more then anyone else in the world every time the holidays would come he would give her a bouquet of lilies and roses, after her passing we all even forgot what his smile looked like, until you came. 

Bears gaze held a softness, he patted my head gently, "ever since you've come here there's been a shift in his attitude, the Atlas we all lost all those years ago is finally coming back i never thought i would see the day but here you are bringing light and colour into all our lives not just his, so thank you for staying with us Anisah. 

soon Bear had to go too and i was left alone to gaze out of the window with my own thoughts and i wondered what young troublemaker Atlas looked like.

Why was the rain so beautiful to me. Others hide away from this gorgeous sight they grimace and run with the umbrellas, does nobody enjoy the freshness of rain even when it leaves me cold and shaking, I'm naïve and will always go back no matter the pain.

Dear readers hope you are listening well

Are we still talking about the rain?

Why does something so cold leave such an ache in my heart
Why

With a heavy hand I reach for my phone.. the last words from my sister screaming in my mind.