One Shots (Wangxian)

One Shot 7: Amnesia ⚠️

⚠️Some content may be sensitive for some readers. Mental health, and suicidal behaviors are all topics within this one shot story. Please read cautiously⚠️
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Her name was Yu Yan, a newer female disciple to my former sworn brother's sect, and I knew that she was cunning and up to no good. Lan Zhan, our adopted son A'Yuan, and I were on a night hunt when we ran into her once. She seemed nice at first and she kept eyeing up Lan Zhan. I kept my petty jealousy to myself and moved on. On that night hunt, Lan Zhan got hurt by a Yao beast. A'Yuan and I got him back to Cloud Recesses just fine but he was unconscious for two weeks. When he woke up, he forgot who I was, even A'Yuan.

"You really forgot me and your son?" I asked.

"I am sorry," he said.

I tried everything to get his memory to come back, but then this girl from my former sworn brother's sect came with him to our sect for a meeting. That girl got close to Lan Zhan really fast, and even Lan Zhan grew fond of her. It broke my heart. He and I were legally married but he didn't see it that way. Lan Zhan's Uncle and Brother even supported him in wanting to be with the girl.

"Are you saying you will not help me?" I asked Xichen, "after all the times he and I were trying to get together and you being so keen on it happening, all of a sudden want me out of the picture?"

"If Wangji is happy with her, then why stop him?" Xichen asked, "he can even have an heir with her, a biological heir!"

My mouth dropped open, "so you choose to support them because I can't produce an heir?"

"Yes!" Xichen said, "and he is better with her than you. He suffered far too much with you as it is. You are a demonic cultivator and I am surprised he put up with you for so long. Uncle and I want you and that bastard Wen out of Cloud Recesses by tomorrow morning!"

A'Yuan and I were heartbroken. I went to the Jingshi to gather my things, and as soon as I walked in, Lan Zhan and Xiao Yu Yan were half naked in bed. My heart shattered, "I thought you'd never leave me again," I said as Lan Zhan got off her and looked at me. He looked shocked to see me standing here, "all that pain you endured for thirteen years mourning me, was it worth it still? If you do not want me, tell me now and I will forever disappear with A'Yuan and you will never see us again!"

Lan Zhan was silent, almost as if he was fighting to remember who I was. Why was everyone so keen on making him forget me and A'Yuan. I then removed his old forehead ribbon from my wrist that I have had on me since the day we married and I dropped it to the floor before leaving the Jingshi. I saw that A'Yuan and Jingyi were still together and talking and having a good time.

"A'Yuan, you and I have to leave, get your things," I said.

"What why?" He asked, Jingyi was even confused.

"Sect Leader Lan's orders. Lan Zhan does not remember us and he is having the time of his life with that bitch Yu Yan bitch. You and I are going to go to Wen Ning's," I said.

A'Yuan nodded and left with me. Wen Ning was living in a small cottage in Yiling, as it was the best place for him. He could keep feeding off the resentful energy that lingers there. Wen Ning was so shocked to know what has been happening. By nightfall he left and said he'd return soon. I told A'Yuan to stay out and I went for a walk.

I walked and I walked until I ended up on that old battlefield at Nevernight. I stood there looking at the spot where Shijie took that sword for me. I stood there remembering the look on Jiang Cheng's face when the light left her eyes. I knew Jiang Cheng would never forget what happened or forgive me. I remembered the so-called righteous prominent people fighting over a tool that should have never been invented.

"Mo Xuanyu, it seems that after all, your efforts to bring me back were all in vain," I said and walked to that cliff's edge. I stood there with Chenqing in my hand and remembered that day, "my memory is the one that is bad, but you forget about me the moment you had the opportunity. Am I really not good enough? Why must it always be me? He promised me he'd never hurt me or leave me. I don't know if I can ever overcome this. I am all alone. A'Yuan has Wen Ning to protect him, while I have no one...I'm so sorry that I ever existed."

"Baba!" I heard A'Yuan yell from a distance, "do not jump!"

I slowly turned around and saw people I was not expecting to see. Jiang Cheng, Lan Xichen, Lan Qiren, Wen Ning, Lan Jingyi, A'Yuan, and Lan Zhan, "why?" I asked, "give me one good reason why I shouldn't plummet to my death again!"

"Because we figured it out!" A'Yuan yelled, "Wen Ning found A'Die. He found out that Xiao Yu Yan was a Spirit that feeds off of spiritual essence of prominent bloodlines. A'Die, Uncle Xichen, and Grand Uncle Qiren were all possessed by her into either forgetting you or harming you. That spirit was also someone who had a former relationship with Jin Guangyao, and she wanted revenge on you for ruining him. Even Sect Leader Jiang was tampered with."

"Why should it matter? Lan Xichen told me I am not good enough for his brother anymore, especially because I cannot give him an heir! He then told me that me being a demonic cultivator and you being a Wen was also a factor to that. I even saw Lan Zhan...half naked with her. How do know if they even?..."

"Wei Ying, I am so sorry!" Lan Zhan said as he tried to get me to calm down, "you know I would never, and I mean never, hurt you like that on purpose. I didn't go all the way because after you walked out of the Jingshi when you dropped the forehead ribbon, the woman left. I was confused by I started to remember you. Please know that..." Lan Zhan looked around, "please...come back to me, Wei Ying."

"Shixiong, I am sorry I haven't been the Shidi that I should have been towards you, but I do not blame you for her, or my parents, or even Lotus Pier. I do not blame you. I did back then out our grief and anger and that was wrong. You are the best Shixiong, and I don't want to lose you again. So please do not do this," Jiang Cheng told me.

"A'Xian, I am sorry about my words towards you. I know how hard it was for you and Wangji to get together, and it was not true, you do belong with him. You help him as he helps you. Yes you learned demonic cultivation but you are back to using your sword again. I do not care about what methods you use, all I care about is your wellbeing," Lan Xichen said.

"Wei Wuxian, you may be a troublemaker but you have actually made Cloud Recesses a more lively place to be. You are such an inspiration to a lot of our junior disciples and they love that you take the time to teach them charms and talismans, even help with their archery. You are a talented cultivator, just like your parents, and knowing them, they would want you to keep living," Lan Qiren told me.

I soon just collapsed to the ground and wrapped my arms around myself. Lan Zhan slowly approached me, "Wei Ying?" He asked.

"Lan Zhan, please do not leave me behind. You're all I have," I said.

Lan Zhan knelt down in front of me and pulled me into a hug, "I love you, so much, and I am so sorry...and who cares about wanting to have an heir, we have an amazing son as it is. If you want another child, we can always talk about that. Please come back home with me."

"Just do not ever scare me like that again, or I will take me life next time," I warned.

"You have my word," Lan Zhan said.

Lan Zhan eventually managed to get me back home and he actually hasn't let me go once. If I needed something, he'd get it immediately. If I needed a bath, he'd be right there in the tub with me. I honestly did not mind, as I did not want to lose him. I could tell he was trying to make it up to me for what happened, but he doesn't need to. I will get over it eventually. Lan Zhan doesn't like that I swept it under the rug though. He was going to continue to work with me on that. And from now on, we were going to be more thorough on our night hunts.