The Family Of The Haunted

Chapter 19, The womenizer

Sam panted heavily as he leaned forward to catch his breath before he heard footsteps behind him and quickly turned around to see Dean standing there with wide-eyed shock written on his face. He took notice of a sweat on his forehead and opened his mouth to speak, but nothing came out. " What happened back there?" Dean questioned as Sam looked away and made a noise that escaped his lips. " I lost it, okay? " He spat as he narrowed his eyes at him. " I don't believe that. You've never snapped like that when I was hanging out with Molly until now? Why?" He inquired as frustration sighed and walked a little ahead of him. Dean speed walks near him. " It reminds me of Dad and you hanging out back then while he taught you how to be a hunter while I was on the sideline." He relieved.

~ Dean POV~

I stared at him in shock as I looked up at him, " He wasn't training me to be a hunter, but instead of a soldier." I told him as he looked down at him with his eyebrows furrowed. " Dad wasn't doing that to make you jealous. He ordered me to protect you like Jess is now for us, and she goes–then all the responsibilities will be on me. " I made known to him. " Dad didn't respect Jess when she showed up because she was hybrids and reminded him of Mom's death. " Sam frowned and stood beside him as I stared into the forest. " Dad was the shellfish and crowd that didn't stay with his kids when they needed him the most. " I clenched my fist and growled. " He fucking started another family!!!" I punched the tree and made a hole.

" Dean, he has chosen to do that. " Sam argued as I glared daggers at him and let my arm fall to my side. " You may be correct, but he could've finished this instead of starting another one. " I heard another step approach, and then Jess appeared. " I don't need to be reminded of Dad or his memories that were good with him before he died," I told them. Jess stood where she was. " I-I am not good because I should've died long ago." Sam shook his head. " Don't say that."

" Why not?"

" Because it's not true."

Jess walked over to me and hugged me. " Sammy, could you leave us alone for a moment?" She asked him as he nodded and wandered off. I looked puzzled at her as she pulled back, " I wanna tell you something that has been on my mind lately," She started as I burrowed my eyebrows forward. " What is it?" She took a shaky breath before she continued. " I am tired of being in this war between good and evil. Sometimes I wanna die and never come back–but I promised Bobby I wouldn't die." I looked down at her as she looked at the sunrise. " You two are old enough to look after yourselves, so when the time is right–I'll sacrifice myself for you two.'' I am in disbelief about that. " This isn't goodbye. You cannot do that." I expressed with a stern tone. Jess lightly chuckled and glanced up at him. " This isn't goodbye, yet it will soon. I can do whatever I want, Dean. " I put my hands on my head and turned away.

" I couldn't handle the weight you're holding on your shoulders, or even let alone take care of Sammy." I blurted out as she moved around me to see me. " You won't be alone to hold this weight because you have Sammy with you. You need to let other people help you and be there," She told me as I moved back. " Why should I? The people that I've let in–they're dead." I let out as she shook her head and took a journal from her bag. " Those deaths weren't your fault. You and I both know that." I glared at her. " Then I blame my demon self because he fucking likes to see me suffer." I snarled.

I took a deep breath before I continued, " I wasn't asked to be made like this." Jess stared up at me with sadness. " I didn't either." She plopped down on the grass as I took the spot near her. " The choices that we've made from the past will come back to hunt us, and I did try my best to keep that from you two, " She licked her lips and let her hands rest on her lap. " My mistakes are burdens that are always hunting me." I raised an eyebrow at her. " It's time for me to move on from everything I have tried so hard to forget, but I couldn't." She spoke gently.