The Family Of The Haunted

Chapter 32, My Dear Little Bug

Dean drove up to the graveyard as he sighed deeply then grabbed the flowers from the passenger seat then walks to the grave to see Jess's one next to their Mom's grave. He went to his knees and set the flowers down onto her grave then stared at it with teary eyes. " Oh, We've tried everything to bring you back, but nothing is working-so why can't you come back to us." he said above a whispered then he choke on his sobs. " Please don't leave us like Mom did or Dad either-It's just that we can't lose another member of our family. " He leaned against the stone and feels like she's right there. " You did said that you'll never leave us, but I wish that we could've been a better big brothers to you." He took out a photo of him and her in there for a couple years ago then set it near her flowers. " Sammy wasn't ready to come on by because it brings too much memory of Mom and Dad are near you, so you're in the middle between to feel more safer. I just hope you guys are together in heaven, or somewhere else." He closed his eyes for a moment when he felt the wind hits his face which it felt warm and cozy feeling. " So I am guessing that you are doing fine, and maybe be here still."

He almost wanted to leave but he didn't, because he wasn't ready to leave her grave stone. Dean leaned against the grave stone with a sighed leaving his lips again, and gets comfortable by it. " Do you remember your song when you were little?" He took a deep breath before he sings her the song when she was little kid.

Dean-
A long time ago, you were so small
that I could hold you in my arms
and keep you safe from all of danger that could hurt you.

Be your big brother who's always there for you
and being proud of you when you finally got your first word out.
You looking up at me when wanting to be held.

I wish I could take all back and never let you leave of that night,
and thinking that I hated you from our first argued moment.

But I don't.
I loved you so much when I first hold you in my arms.

~ Flashback~

Dean kept on glancing over his shoulder to see her looking out of the window then sighed, " So..how was school today?" He asked while Sam glanced at him for a moment then looked ahead of them. '' It was always the same like always." She answered, not looking at me. " Wouldn't be so hard for you to at least like here then Tulsa?" Sam let out another groaned at the mentioned of their used to be home town until some things happened. " I rather be there then here. Why are we always moving around in different states, and not staying in one place?" She asked as Dean exhaled deeply as he looked ahead of them. " Because you know why we can't do that." Jess groaned and crossed her arms, " Isn't fair to move away from people that I was friends with. " Sam looked at the mirror to see her glancing out of the night sky then her eyes are watching trees gonna by them.

" We know that you and the guys hanged a lot and felt like their were good friends with you, but we just can't risk it." Sam tried to reason with her until she send him a glared. " I didn't even said goodbye to them-and Soda is gonna be so depression." She muttered as she puts her earbuds in her ears to block them out. Sam sighed softly and looked over at Dean, " Still think that she won't hate us?" He asked as Dean shook his head, " She will get over it like always." He looked at him and shook his head at him. " I've always told her not to get attached by people, and now look what happened." He pointed out. " They're family to each other." He said harshly, as Dean muttered some words then turned up the music as Sam just given him a annoyed looked.

A few week later, Jess check the mail box and see one from Ponyboy as she smiled brightly then runs inside to her room. Sam and Dean looked at each other with confused, " Do you think that they've sent her a letter?" Dean asked as Sam shrugged his shoulders. " I think so because she normal isn't this happy, and honestly hope it is." He arched an eyebrow at him, " Why would you say that?" He questioned as Sam stood up and glanced at him then puts his plate away. " I know that Jess isn't happy here like she used be in Tulsa. I can tell how unhappy she is, so either we visit her old place or let her be more unhappy like she is now." Sam answered as Dean narrowed his eyes at him; " She will eventually get used to it here, so don't be a hero for her on this." He argued as Sam rolled his eyes at him. " You think that, but that ain't happening any time soon." He told him. " When did you start to defined her?" He stared at him as he rest his hands onto the counter. " I started to defined her when she come back from that school! She was so depression until she got there!" He shouted at him.

Dean scoffed at him and looking at him, " because Dad thought it was good for her when she was only 12 years old." Sam glared at him and slowly shook his head at him. " Yea, a 12 year old girl went into that school and changed into someone that I-we don't know anymore." He whispered as he stared at him blankly, " Why are you like this? I mean she is different into personality but it wasn't nothing too personal. " He added as he let out a scoffed. " I can't believe you right now of actually defining Dad of all people." He said, being shocked about this as Dean looked at him then the floor. " He thought it was good for her then I felt guilty about it.."

" It took him for months to get her out of that place."

" I know.."

" If Bug ever finds out about this, and she will never forgive you." Dean side-eyed him before took a sip of his beer as he sighed deeply when Sam left the room without saying anymore to him. Dean went into his thoughts; I hope that she will never find out what I've done and did to her when she was alive if she ever finds out about this then I am fucked. If that happened-someone helped me please. I would hate her to truly hate me forever-I wouldn't leave with myself for that. Then I glanced at the kitchen entrance to see Jess speed walking past it which I got up to follow her to see a envelope in her hand. " Bug, what are you doing?''

She looked over her shoulder for a second before she went outside to the mail box. " Just written to Ponyboy about some things that are happening." She answered as He nodded and wondered of what he has written to her. " Are they doing ok?" He asked which she given him a tight smiled. " A little, but Johnny has moved into their house because of his partners." He listened to her then hummed softly, " That's good to hear about Johnny moving into their house, and I hated his partners when we first got there." He recalled the memory of them moving into the neighborhood for the first time, and seeing Johnny running out of there like a prey and hunter. So he stepped in and stopped the Dad for gonna after him. " You did save him from his father." She tells him as he nodded slight.

" Yea, I do remember that." As she puts the flag up and walked with him back to the bunker.